cheering myself up

i know i'm being selfish but i want things to be just like before. please don't be mad at me. can we just stay friends forever? please please i'm begging you.

lagi 12 harii

well, pardon me for being such a silly emotional spoiled brat (heh ambik kau) in the previous post. blaming Him for things you fail to achieve? stupid, i must say.


here are few things i must remind myself to do and not to do;


1. jangan boros lagi. tolong la faham elaun kau sangat la tak banyak jangan mengada-ngada nak beli kasut baru tiap-tiap kali elaun masuk. padan muka setiap kali duit habis mengadu kat abah suruh masukkan duit. sila insaf sekarang heh.


2. who cares if he's mad or not. i akan anggap dia kawan i semata-mata sampai bila-bila, the end.


3. kalau nak jadi pandai kena la rajin belajar. jangan malas-malas lagi! tolong la faham final lagi tiga minggu tahu tak?


4. and and umi abah nak datang sini lagi dua belas harii! at last, i have something nice to look forward. i mean, something nicer. err whatever.


happy weekend people :)

cakap-cakap tu kan doa

jadi, tolong la jangan asyik merepek heh nak keneng-kenengkan i dengan orang itu orang ini nanti kalau jadi betul macam mana? i jugak yang merana tolong la i tak nak okey? marah grr.


okey lupakan perkara yang serabut. hoh hari ini sangat penat walhal ada dua kelas je. tadi macam kelam-kabut sikit taw sebab dalam bas sebelum sampai MSU i baru teringat hari ni sepatutnya i kena buat presentation chemistry. gila ahh dah la i tertinggal nota kat rumah habis kelam-kabut tadi buat ringkasan sikit-sikit apa nak cakap nanti. nasib baik i kena present pasal electrolysis yang semua orang dah pernah belajar sebelum ni. kalau tak habis la i merepek sorang-sorang kat depan kelas. lain kali buat la kalut macam tu lagi heh.


esok kuiz anatomy kuiz chemistry! tak habis belajar lagi tapi mengada-ngada nak update blog. dah dah cepat pergi belajar sekarang. selamat berjaya kepada diri sendiri haha.

siapa cakap maths senang?

madam asharina would, apparently. but not me. i always hate maths. like literally, i hate maths and i think the reason i choose to become a doctor in spite of all the long and winding road (heh) sebab memang i tak suka maths. i tak suka apa-apa yang ada kaitan dengan nombor kecuali diskaun masa year end sales. kenapa i kena belajar maths pun i tak tahu.


well luckily for me kalau i lagi tak suka certain subjects tu it's easier for me to get A. pelik. mungkin sebab i dah mindset i tak pandai this and that so i belajar rajin-rajin. oh oh except for BM. masa spm je kot i dapat A1 -___-"


madam asharina is a good teacher. dia sangat pandai okey. like, a maths genius. she used to study in aussie (aussie i tell you!) and she's the only malay student in her course. gila pandai wey. the problem is, she's different. i mean, she's way different from the other lecturers. i selalu masalah kalau nak adapt dengan perubahan so i think i need more time nak adapt dengan madam kesayangan. cuma i risau i perlu banyak masa nak adapt walhal tinggal lagi sebulan final exam. dah la i paling tak suka maths. so how?


and i did something really bad the other day. i broke someone's heart. well i'm sorry and i really mean it.

hello saturday!

i always love saturday haha. back when i was in terengganu i hate saturday. back then saturday means i have to finish all of my homeworks, get ready for school and get ready to get busy and tired all over again. oh oh was it like two years ago i used to be a form fiver? wow that was a long time ago i guess.


so the weekend has started and for the first time ever i've done a to-do-list good job didiey (tak habis-habis puji diri sendiri). heh kalau buat to-do-list tapi kalau tak habiskan baik tak payah.


life has been so busy lately (tapi masih sempat update blog) sangat banyak benda kena siapkan suddenly i miss home. i won't be coming home this CNY since my parents are so coming to shah alam yeay can't wait. my sister is off to NZ by next month, particularly on the eve of CNY. my best friend asked me what would i feel about my sister going but the question left me speechless. well, i guess i haven't give much thought about her going. but i think i would miss her terribly (euwww if you read this haha).


and btw i have finally master the way to calculate the overall pointer and heh sila teka berapa yang i dapat? 3.92 sahaja. see how much an A- affects my whole life? my whole pointer, i mean. ini bermaksud i perlu WAJIB berusaha lagi kuat bukan sekadar temankan hanis insyirah layan hindustan. haha apakah?


i akan cuba menulis blog dalam bahasa melayu. well i remember promising to write in bahasa in my first entry a year ago. i akan cuba walaupun bahasa melayu i sangat teruk masa spm dulu-dulu sangat ajaib kalau i dapat A untuk bm.


okey i am so going to enjoy my weekend so till then people :)

tak suka panas tapi tak tahan sejuk habis tu mana i nak tinggal?

hari ni isytihar sebagai hari serabut sedunia. sangat serabut sebab lab test chemistry sepatutnya pukul 12 lebih tapi macam biasa bas pukul 10 lebih sampai je MSU terus pergi print out lab report chemistry. sikit punya lama edit-edit report berpeluh ketiak heh. dah la kedai print tu tempat yang i paling tak suka sebab panas hapak tolong la pasang air-cond lain kali.


lepas tu classmates semua ajak pergi tengok result mid sem. semalam i dah gila cuak bila tahu result keluar hari ni. bayang ah, kitorang exam tahun lepas sekarang baru dapat result (walhal baru berapa hari tahun baru haha).


bila tengok result apa semua kan terus pergi lab sebab nak siapkan lab test cepat-cepat malas dah nak baca apa lagi kan. dah la kena berebut tempat satu lab boleh masuk 15 orang je. dah la panas heh i memang tak suka panas.


masa lab test i sangat kesian burette masalah conical flask berminyak lepas tu cuak nak kira dissociation constant entah betul entah tidak apa yang i jawab. redha je la didiey. habis lab test kitorang jalan pergi kelas pukul lima tadi baru habis kelas.


okey sebenarnya nak cerita pasal mid sem result saja nak buat introduction panjang-panjang haha. well to be honest i did not put any high hope sebab i tak nak sedih-sedih lagi kalau tak dapat apa yang i nak. still, i was a little frustrated i did not get A for anatomy subject grr. i got A for other four subjects thank god for that but it would be really nice if i score four flat huh?


but things happened. and i can do better next time. there's always next time. kali ini memang gila semangat ahh nak dapatkan A untuk anatomy. pray for me, would you? :)

i'm glad weekend is over

serius. si pemalas didiey asyik main-main je kalau tak ada kelas. tidur lambat bangun lambat makan banyak online banyak hish tak senonoh. mana pergi semua azam tahun baru i? heh konon nak jadi rajin nak dapat four flat yada yada come on la didiey -___-"


fine, lepas ni i akan jadi lebih serius. tak hingin layan perasaan bukan-bukan lagi. i kan dah besar (berapa kali nak cakap).


i realized that i write blog not for people to read. i mean, i semangat tulis blog sebab i nak bagi updates pasal diri i dan kehidupan baru penuh gelora ecehh kepada kawan-kawan lama i yang i tahu sekali-sekala akan baca apa yang i merepek kat sini. but for my new friends to read and know my past; well i have never intended to do so. not that i have a bad past ke hape kan tapi segan sikit la. dah la i memang suka merepek dari dulu sampai sekarang. nanti kalau semua orang salah faham macam mana?


heh i wish to change my link tapi sangat leceh. macam mana my fellow bloggers nak jejak i nanti? susah susah. ahh whatever. like who cares who read my blog? as long as you keep it to yourself and not making a big deal out of anything, i don't mind.


bajet semua orang baca blog kau ke? heh.

allowance

as soon as my january allowance is cashed and ka-chingg ready to be used i went to mid valley and bought three shirts. two to be exact, because the my friend bought me one for my belated birthday. thank you very much.


now i realised i had spent at least 100 bucks for the whole day. wow. see how boros i can be? to avoid hating myself for spending so much money i convinced myself that i have the right to spend as much money as i want sebab i dah 13 hari suffer hidup tanpa elaun (elaun MARA terlambat masuk). heh.


okey benda dah dilepas jangan dikenang. i tanak fikir lagi berapa banyak i dah habiskan hari ni hish. pergi belajar sekarang didiey. bye.

it's not you, it's me

"you know what dear, i still don't get over it" i said to my friend.


"it's because you don't want to get over it"


"well, i don't want to"


"why?"


"because she never like me and i never like her. there's no point if i make an effort to get over it. we still don't like each other"


my friend said nothing.

dean's list award

well it was quite fun actually despite the fact that i'm not at all bersemangat to join the event at the first place. the theme was all red (official colour of MSU kesayangan) and the girls had fun snapping pictures. and maybe that was the main reason why i had so much fun :P


some random pictures ;

madam kamsiah's mentees :)

didiey and najwa hani
both are retarded (in a cute way) haha

i was touched when daddy said congratulations. walhal i didn't feel a thing about this. maybe i should be a little more grateful. alhamdulillah for my good result, i'm blessed :)

boys would be boys

it's monday and i already miss my weekend. i just came back from a nice trip to cameron highlands and hey i think i'm not going to poland after all. i can't stand the cold. gila ah, pagi tu i pergi jogging saja nak explore tempat. i can't hardly breathe sebab penat jogging dan penat nak tarik hembus nafas heh serius sejuk.


today is such a waste i think. tiba-tiba dua kelas dibatalkan pukul 11 kitorang dah boleh balik. and esok ada event hape entah dean's list award so the whole day tak akan belajar. like hello, final exam dah dekat i nak belajar la. okey sebenarnya i tak semangat sangat nak pergi event tu sebab sebab sebab i didn't get four flat remember? heh.


the other day i was talking to a friend of mine. he's the guy from another class i hardly know him kalau jumpa pun setakat hai. i sangat rimas bila semua orang tiba-tiba tak tahu nak cakap apa semua orang diam heh i can't stand the awkward situations. so as to start a conversation i pun cakap la pasal bola. like seriously, i cakap pasal manchester united. i hardly know anyone from the club i cuma tahu david beckham pernah join kelab tu. heh he was excited nak cakap pasal his favourite club, i guess, malangnya i tak tahu apa-apa pasal bola haha.


so i said to him, the only thing i like about football is the hot guys. but he doesn't find the guys i think so hot that i melt are hot. he's only interested with how the hot guys play, i guess. heh serius i tak faham dengan kegemaran lelaki. dan sesetengah perempuan.


ahh well, after all semua orang ada kegemaran masing-masing. like me, i love spending time in pasar malam and tasted all the weird food i found. pasar malam in cameron highlands is heaven. mungkin berat i dah naik lepas pergi sana dua hari. grr.

semangat nak kurus yeahh!

i know i keep on deleting my entries i sendiri pun tak tahu kenapa i semangat tulis lepas tu delete heh. agaknya sejak akhir-akhir ni i kurang bernafsu nak update blog macam selalu.


semalam i pergi buat discussion physics kat rumah sabrina then i yang gatal-gatal kaki nak pergi timbang berat. the weighing scale always scares me tapi malam tu i dah nekad; i need to know the truth haha bajet je. so nak dipendekkan cerita i dah siap timbang semua i dah cuak. fine, memang la berat badan i ideal je tak la overweight ke hape kan still i hate my weight. heh i hate the numbers yang macam semakin hari semakin bertambah grr i decided i need to do something about it.


macam tadi, masa i pergi jalan-jalan dengan mira kat SACC mall i tolak pelawaan mira yang baik hati nak belanja i big apple kesayangan. man, big apple seyy. bagus didiey, semakin hari semakin matured i love u lahh! and petang tadi secara rasminya syaer tiba-tiba nak jadi trainor i heh dia paksa i jogging tiga hari seminggu. tapi bila i tanya dia bila i boleh kurus dia cakap jangan la asyik fikir nak kurus je tapi fikir la pasal nak make sure jantung sihat bla bla bla ni susah kalau ajak orang bijak pandai pergi jogging -____-"


so keep it up didieyy! didiey kuat yeahh! okey bye nak pergi belajar. haha belajar ke?

happy 18 :)

hari tua i tiap-tiap tahun mesti jatuh pada hari pertama sekolah. i ingat lagi masa i darjah lima kot i kena kenalkan diri kat depan. masa tu kelas english. i pun dengan semangatnya bagitau nama i tarikh lahir i tiba-tiba '6 january? today is 6 january right? wow happy birthday' lepas tu satu kelas nyanyi untuk i. heh.


buat pertama kalinya dalam hidup i, hari tua i tak lagi jatuh pada hari pertama sekolah. we're in the middle of the second semester tak lama pun lagi dah nak final hish asal i tiba-tiba cakap pasal final ni?


cerita macam mana kawan-kawan i suprise-kan i sangat panjang sangat bosan heh so tengok gambar je la. and these pictures are like randomly uploaded so yeah, enjoy!


and and i love you guys :)

iman, najwa hani

while waiting for the birthday girl :)

signing up the birthday card

this was when both of us arrived and
everybody cheered haha so sweet :')

did i tell you guys my birhtday actually
sama dengan si sengal yang selalu buli i?


heh gila ironi.

ahh well, apology accepted.

heh muka i gila teruja.

you guys are simply fabulous :)

say; wow!

wow i'm officially eighteen. i mean, WOW I'M EIGHTEEN I AM NO LONGER A CHILD! perasaan bercampur-gaul; seronok (heh semua orang semangat sebab akhirnya i dah boleh masuk panggung sekali dengan diorang), teruja (anak dara umur 18 tahun dah boleh kahwin euw), sedih etc.


but mostly i rasa sedih. satu, sebab i memang jenis emosional semua benda nak sedih heh bajet dramatik. dua, sebab i am no longer a child. bila dah no longer a child maksudnya semua benda i yang kena buat keputusan. nak pergi negara mana lepas habis foundation i sendiri yang kena buat keputusan (btw i have made up my mind tapi nanti la i cakap). tiga, sebab umur dah 18 tapi perangai macam _______ heh fill in the blank -___-"


wow, 18.


and and my housemates are super fabulous they made me the longest birthday card i have ever received nanti i upload gambar.


i'm eighteen and i'm blessed to have such beautiful family and friends :)

my head is empty

...and again, my heart is aching. kenapa? well, for various reasons (wow baru minggu pertama tahun baru start dah macam-macam perasaan yang i alami).


okey, pernah alami tak perasaan bila ; when you view let's say your friend's wall and godek-godek gambar terbaru dia and see how she or he has changed throughout the year without you. heh selama ini makan minum sekali tidur sebantal tiba-tiba dah ada orang lain yang gantikan tempat tu. then what am i to you now?


emosional lagi. cakap dah besar?

500 days of summer

i downloaded 500 days of summer after i read the review from my once-upon-a-time-he-used-to-be-my-english-lecturer's blog. he said it is a nice movie so i apa lagi terus download. heh i kan memang senang dipengaruhi.




okey pergi google sendiri sinopsis cerita ni i malas nak type panjang-panjang. but the way he loves her is so sweet i want i want i want a guy like him. and and he's good looking too :P


but i'm a little disagree with the movie. life is not about coincidence, it's about our own effort. some things are meant to be that way but god gives us the chance to change it. senang cakap kalau nak dapat four flat kena la belajar rajin-rajin jangan la asyik main facebook je kalau tak dapat baru la sibuk nak menangis heh tiba-tiba terasa. but in the end their love story make me smile all dayy.


well talking about love story and all, i semangat nak cerita pasal encik crush. heh classmates i asyik teka orang itu orang ini haha i tak pernah nak mengaku. well i like him i mean i like him as in i like to be his friend gelak sama-sama merepek sama-sama when he's happy i'm happy when he's down i'll say something to cheer him up bukannya bila i cakap i suka dia i nak jadi girlfriend dia jalan berkepit dengan dia heh tolong la faham. nur diyanah is too young for lovey doveyy thingy hello i baru lapan belas okey.


i'm wishing encik crush happy happy new year belajar elok-elok :)


haha itu pun kalau dia baca blog i and knows i have crush on him.