roller coaster (of emotions)

okay tadi i dah tulis gila panjang tapi tiba-tiba terpadam. benci. malas nak tulis balik bye.

of excitement and frustration

Sheraton Chennai, good memories :)

i am truly frustrated today. but i am a big girl i should not make a big fuss out of it. i just need some more patience and that would solve everything. and oh, some money too. well if money is your priority, i can handle that. Rs 7000 is nothing you know (compared to a helping hand).


and i'm getting immune by your harsh words and your pride.


p/s : pft i can be so emo sometimes -.-'

sedih sikit -.-

this blog is dying, seriously. i wish i have more time to spend with Loud. but i have too many books to be read and i have to excel in the upcoming second IA. come on, i won't let Iz** win this time. cukup la kalah 1 markah dalam mcq Anatomy. eh eh niat dah lari sikit err, get back on track please. belajar kan kerana Allah :)


anyway! i had so much fun last night spending the whole night with Auni. for those who don't know, i'm babysitting Auni and her 3 kittens for three weeks starting from yesterday. Auni is a Persian cat and she's a diva. sombong gila. kena cakap dia cantik sepuluh kali baru dia nak pandang. serius -.-' senang je kerja i, tiap-tiap petang i kena bagi makan bagi minum, main-main sikit.. itu je. tapi semalam i temankan Auni siap bermalam kat sana lagi hehe. mula-mula Auni macam tak suka i sangat heh ta[i (baru perasan salah eja tapi malas nak tukar haha) sekarang macam dah okay kot? hmph susah.


regarding to title, tahu kenapa i sedih sikit? hmm macam ni. i'm not really good at mingling with seniors but there are certain ones that i like very much like my Kakak Usrah and few others. one of them is hmm let's call her Kakak. so Kakak is getting married in two weeks time. she's in her second year and she's marrying one his batch mate haha comel kan :) the thing is, lepas dia kahwin nanti mesti dia dah tak jadi macam dulu.. Kakak selalu masak untuk kitorang! heh lepas ni mesti masak untuk suami dia je kan -.- rasa macam kehilangan. okay emo gila but this is the truth! anyway i wish them all the best, kahwin elok-elok ye T.T


okay nak pergi belajar babaiii :)

HURRY

nanti update busy la bye.

Dalam hati.

meet Auniii :)

1. hari tu ada orang cakap kat i "eh kamu sedih ke, kenapa tak nampak macam sedih pun? sedih main-main ke?" well, i don't tell people when i'm sad. kalau happy baru la boleh share :) truth is, my heart is crushed into thousand pieces. only Allah knows how heartbroken i am. and He is always there. Alhamdulillah :)


2. i went to Chennai for two days for some political stuff. jumpa TPM but i barely listen to a word he was saying because i was too absorbed with the great dinner HAHA. makan serius sedap, especially the main dish. too bad tak sempat habis makan sebab asyik borak dengan kawan baru dari Chennai. and i met Nicole Ann David there! tapi nampak belakang je la -.-' ada match kat sana kot tapi dengar cerita team Malaysia dah kalah? eh?


3. finally i met Auniiii and the 3 babies! oh oh sayangnya kat diorang hanya Allah yang tahu :') Kak Ain sangat baik, dia bagi i jaga Auni, Yaya, Dedel dengan Denden for 3 weeks! baik kan? Abah cakap tak susah ke nanti nak ulang alik bagi kucing makan tapii these cats soothe me. they make me feel out of the world, serius. tak kisah la susah sikit. they are too charming to resist! insyaAllah tak kacau study. kan? doakan! :)


4. it is always nice to know that there are people who care when you're down. thank you :)


bye!

Crap.

some people don't hide their emotions and one can easily guess what they are thinking. but for some people, they are way too complicated and secretive. and you'll be so suprised to discover some things about them. some things that you thought you knew but you actually don't. wow. now i have a lot more to learn. learn to know people around you better, not focusing on only some of them :)

10 random facts

1. i enjoy cooking for my friends. before i take Herbalife and stop eating dinner, i was kind of looking forward for my turn to cook dinner. like yesterday, i cooked dinner for my dear Kakak Usrah since she's busy with exam :) too bad i'm not really good at cooking. Alif said my nasi goreng tastes like plastic -.-'


oh ya, nak cerita pasal Herbalife! *bukan nak promote okaay* it is more like a supplement, bukan la pil kurus semata-mata. i bukan sengaja beli sebab nak kurus tapiii tiba-tiba ada orang bagi hadiah. maksudnya orang tu nak cakap i gemuk ke? T.T anyway, Herbalife is a soy product sebenarnya and campur dengan susu and minum ganti breakfast and dinner. so hari-hari i makan lunch je. hebat kan? -.-' and and Herbalife kan kan buat i jadi tak rasa nak makan. rasa kenyang je setiap masa heh. mungkin akan kurus lagi 2-3 bulan? :)



2. i always think i am not good enough to tegur anyone for their behaviours. i mean, i did a lot of mistakes, mana layak nak tegur orang. diri sendiri kena betul dulu baru boleh nak betulkan orang lain, kan? but when i see some people who do such things tegur orang tapi diri sendiri buat jugak it annoys me so much. seriously.



3. India is getting hotter but slightly cooler than Malaysia. i start sweating and rasa serabut if the fan is not switched on. i heard summer in Bangalore can reach up to 40 degree celcius. damn. i can't stand the heat, i survive better in cold weather. tolong la selalu hujan pleaseee :(




4. i find it hard to study when it gets too quiet. i makes me sleepy and bored. i need some noise, but i get distracted when people around me are making noise. eh? hmm i'm so complicated. 2nd IA is approaching and i am not ready. exams make me me studying without enjoying the classes. tak suka.



5. i am indeed emotional and super-sensitive. i get easily hurt by playful remarks from my friends. but i don't know how to tell them to stop making fun of me. i end up being miserable sorang-sorang.



6. i envy my friends in Tasmania. i envy the weather. shh, this is supposed to be a secret, don't tell anyone -.-'



7. i decide to keep Demok (Demok is my new virtual hamster!) because i miss my cats so badly. lambatnya kakak-kakak 3rd batch balik Malaysia sebab i nak jaga kucing-kucing diorang! i dah cakap kat sorang kakak ni i sanggup jaga kucing dia. oh seronoknya! i can't waiiiit. tolong la jadiiii :)



7 are enough i think? malasnya nak type.. bye!