It's Ramadhan again and the days pass by reaaaally fast and again, I barely able to catch my breath. But I feel okay tho and I'm loving life nowadays. I just got back from Terawih and ummmm this is weird I'm so used to write to myself (I keep a private blog for over a year to keep me sane).
I'm in Emergency Medicine posting now -- my last posting before the final exam. I like the rush in A&E department I like how cool everyone is handling patients, they know what to do and what not to do and they don't seem to be bothered with emotion. Last two day I almost cried when a son brought his dead mother to the ER. He knew she was dead even before they came here and but he was hopeful and it was heart breaking when he started sobbing and called out for her.
That's one the reasons la why I wanted to write again so I can look back and reminisce the old days hewhew. And I'm getting annoyed with Instagram too -- everyone is kind like trying too hard to fit in they post selfies and write a totally unrelated captions (I do it sometimes haha) but come on, haha.
For the last two weeks my everyday routine would be -- wake up for sahur, eat, try to read something but fail and end up sleeping until 7.30, go to school, hours passed before I would realize the day is coming to the end, go back home and cook (okay I lied most of the time my husband would cook haha), Terawih prayer, try to read something but end up sleeping until it's time to wake up for sahur again and -- hey it's Monday again!
Before this all I have to do is you know, attend classes, examine patients, present the cases to the consultants.. and that's that. But in Ramaiah Hospital they treat you like one of those interns where you have to attend patients, fill up all the forms, follow up and out of nowhere a consultant would simple ask you about the progress of the patients, what are the interventions have been done to them etc etc. And the same time I have to attend classes and they expect you to know all the answers T_T
It's fun I like how we are treated as one of them but it takes up all the energy I have for one day by the time I get home all I want to is sleep haha. So um, I skipped one or two Terawih prayer...... haha but in my defense I did it at home so it's still considered oookaaay :p
Whenever I feel too tired to wake up in the morning I remind myself that I'm still young and why do I have to complain so much that's what I have to do as long as I'm alive and young and you know, kenapa aku attached gila dengan "agi idup agi ngelaban" (isit?) haha.
Ok bai.
