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We humans are annoying. We know it's not right to ask but we end up asking the very question for the sake of a conversation.

"Bila nak kahwin"

"La dah kahwin. Dah ada anak?"

"Bila lagi?"

"Nampak dah berisi, ada isi ke?"

Sometimes I ask the same questions too. Told you we are annoying.

And we forgot the truth behind all those answers; the effort, the fear, the disappointment, the giving-ups.. 

But me being me, I laugh at everything. Or shrug it off like I don't really care. 

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Now I developed a new obsession -- making sure Toby eats something haha because he refused to eat anything. Even a freshly-boiled chicken! Just now I "accidentally" shoved his biscuits into his mouth and well, he continued eating like nothing happened. Okaaay. He's confusing and he's only a cat wait until I have a baby who would keep on crying and I don't know what I should do to make it stop.......


My parents keep on saying that Toby is a sad cat and it's all my fault. They said I trained him to be a baby instead of a cat now he's confused so now he's sad. Really.....


So, it's been almost a month we've been in Terengganu I really think we should go back to Johor by this time..... Of course I like my house better haha but I miss Ibu too (seriously!) and A keeps on saying how he misses Johor. Okay I get it... wait until we both get our licenses ok! We plan to drive back to Johor but I don't know -- should we? Sounds like fun but it would cost a lot more than two bus tickets. We're officially broke haha I don't know how are we going to survive months until we got hired T_T



In the meantime, We spend the free time helping out my parents. Mowing the lawn and whatnot bahaha. And I'm currently reading The Particular Sadness of Lemon Cake which is by the way as sad as the title is. But I like sad, depressing novels.


I went to H's house the other day and his Mom let me have few books since nobody would read those books anymore. She said she did a part time job as a librarian because "she loves books".


I need to jot everything down for future reference. I'm only 23 but I forgot 60% of what happened in my life. Such a pity.

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I went to Shah Alam yesterday to attend Mira's brother's wedding. Her brother's, not hers haha I did not intend to go in the first place because I hardly know her brother and I know she would be busy and it's a long ride (and a lot of money spent!) to Shah Alam but she insisted and it's kind of fun meeting them after almost a month we last see each other.. so yeah..


As expected Mira was busy with the guests and Linda was busy with her boyfriend (haha!) and yeah, my sister was there too. I insisted her to come and stuff her with good food to stop her from whining from "not getting enough good food because she's broke" haha not at all it's just her and the whining. And Ama was there and since she planned to board the plane to Kelantan we spent the rest of the day together before going to the airport together.


I'm always amazed on how Ama can stay in touch with the "people in the past" (I don't stay in touch and people come and go in your life except for few in my life) and she really makes the effort to stay in touch satu, and stay close like they were before. Wow. I can do that with only few people. Thank God I don't get awkward with Sha for example. But others -- haha. I know right, it's not you, it's me! I'm the socially awkward one.


It's nice to actually sit alone sometimes (I mean after you got married) and you know, just me and good, strong coffee and a book -- before I got married I did hat almost everyday. After classes finished I would spend the free time in any random shops for a good cup of coffee, alone. It was fun!


But I got so caught up in the marriage haha and I barely spend time alone anymore. Now after one year we figured out we do need "our own space" sometimes.


And my husband is the sweetest! Toby got injured and he stopped eating! I think it's because of the injury (at the nose to be exact) he can barely smell anything so he just stopped eating. But he got better but he eats so little I'm so worried I wanted to cry but we boil some chicken for him (he eats chicken!).


I always suap Toby because I want him to be dependent on me haha but I was busy just now so I said to A can you suap him like I always do and he actually did it! Despite the fact that he does not encourage me to manjakan Toby and whatnot but -- ow man I wanted to cry haha. We really need to get pregnant now I know he's ready! :p

"Baru habis belajar"

Hi. I'm actually home, for good. Can you believe it haha. It's been so long and now I'm home again. I haven't miss Bangalore, yet. I've been busy adapting with the new life (as an adult?). Everything is so carefree in India, even after I got married. It kinda different here tho. The good different or bad different -- I need time to tell haha.


Despite my resolution to lose weight I'm still fat.


Toby is home too! I was expecting he would be the loser one, you know. Because I got fifteen other cats at home. I imagined he would be chased by the other cats and his life would be miserable (less miserable than being left at India with some strangers).


Well, it turns out differently. He chases all other cats... he even defeated the "alpha male" among the cats here..... what the.... now he got some injuries at the face because he's busy chasing everyone..... and he eats fish and chicken! That's not the cat that I know for four years!


Thank God at least he still remember me. If not.. I jual you Toby hmph. I wanted to blog about the process of taking him back here (niat selalu ada) but later okay, haha.


They said we would be called for interviews at least after six months. At first I don't mind. I don't want to start early and suffer like my seniors haha but now.. I kinda need money.....


I said to my husband I dream of going into a mall and buy everything without having to stop and think "Eh dah lebih bajet ke" T_T If I were still single I would take the job at a pet shop nearby! Kerja mandikan kucing! I don't mind that haha. But it's different after you got married -- priorities change :p


Eh, later (suami dah balik).