WS #2

went to usrah last night, this time at Linda's house. she made the best nasi lemak ever! ish, nak pergi belajar ke nak makan?! hehe biasa la, lepas belajar mesti lapar :p

semalam Kak Farah said she wanted to discuss about something else rather than learning the module. since yesterday's was the last usrah for 2011 (haha walhal 2012 dua tiga hari je lagi saja nak dramatik) she wanted us to go back and reflect what have we done throughout the year. is there any change in terms of iman? ibadat? naik ke? turun ke? it was a tough question though. it's hard to go back and remember all the mistakes you have done. rasa malu lagi banyak dari rasa bangga..

Kak Farah asked, why do Muslims disobey Allah? there are three reasons (that i never thought of). satu, tak yakin kepada Allah. dua, tak yakin dengan hari pembalasan dan tiga, cinta kepada diri sendiri dan mengabaikan orang lain.

eh, kita kan Muslim mesti la kita percaya dan tahu akan kewujudan Allah? PERCAYA dan YAKIN tak sama sebenarnya.. ada satu analogi, contohnya kalau tiba-tiba cikgu cakap minggu depan ada exam. kita semua mesti la kan nak belajar betul-betul at least tak nak fail kan. cuba kalau cikgu cakap nanti akan ada exam tapi tak sure lagi bila so what would you do? "alaa lambat lagi pun, entah-entah tak jadi nanti bila dah confirm la baru belajar betul-betul.." see the difference? :)

sebab kita tak nampak Allah dan kita tahu, tapi tak betul-betul yakin bila dan macam mana hari pembalasan kelak sebab tu kita berani buat benda yang Allah larang. kalau dulu-dulu selalu kita dengar (dalam al-Quran) ada cerita Allah bagi pembalasan secara "cash" kat dunia haa, cuba kalau Allah buat macam tu kepada kita kalau kita buat dosa. takut kan? T__T

siapa antara kawan-kawan kita yang paling sayang kita? jyeah, those friends who guide us to Allah. kawan-kawan yang selalu ajak jemaah sama-sama, yang berani cakap "kenapa kau pakai tudung singkat sangat?" dan yang ikhlas masakkan (contoh) untuk kita.

it's not easy though. hm, semua benda pun tak senang sebenarnya. tapi kena berusaha untuk senangkan semua benda, eh faham tak? -,-

oh satu lagi! selalu orang cakap "aku tak dapat hidayah lagi la, tunggu aku dapat hidayah baru aku pergi solat jemaah kat surau". eh, tak betul okay! kadang-kadang Allah dah bagi nah hidayah untuk kau, tapi Allah nak kita berusaha. dia nak kita yang cari mana hidayah yang Dia bagi tu. berusaha in terms of, kalau malas pergi surau contohnya pergi cari kawan yang boleh temankan. berusaha la tu namanya. kak Farah cakap jangan sampai Allah bosan dan tak nak dah kasi hidayah kat kita! T__T

hmm apa lagi ya? itu je la kot yang paling tersentuh kat hati (banyak lagi sebenarnya tapi bila banyak sangat nak tulis takut mesej tak sampai). oh, esok dah tahun baru! peluang untuk jadi lebih baik, mungkin? ;)

kbye!

dislikeee

i don't like to have someone who got the same name as i am. yeah, tak suka. ridiculous kan? not that i can control people's names. tapi serius tak suka, i feel awkward gilaaa and i will never be able to get close with those people. don't blame me, i'm just arrogant that way T__T

kbye.

rainbow cake

it was months ago, i decided to bake a rainbow cake. it's basically a sponge cake with lots of colours. cantik! at first the idea to bake this cake is forgotten because i didn't have an oven, but since i purchased one from a senior (rasanya pernah cerita dalam blog) the burning desire (haha) to bake this cake is overwhelming so yesterday i baked one for Mira's surprise birthday party.

but i was overconfident and over-imaginative, the icing was a major failure *nangis*. i used two recipes and i failed both?! Kak Mier said i have to mix the white egg at least 20-30 minutes (?) for it to become very light and very frothy. i was impatient, of course. it's such a waste of time to mix and wait for half an hour for the icing heh, so not me haha.

since there's no icing and i was so upset sebab tak jadi, i used Hershey's chocolate as "glue" to stick three layers of the cake. eh, jadi pulak? hehe. but the presentation was really bad but Alhamdulillah everyone enjoyed it and wanted for more! too bad i baked one cake for 15 (or so) people haha.

mission accomplished! :')

must try again one day.

oh, HB Mira! it's so sweet to see everyone is so excited to celebrate birthdays :)

lagi 30 minit i ada usrah and i promised Najwa to bake apple crumble for her, in return she will bake kek batik for me yeay! i love kek batik tapi tak pernah buat so i assume i tak pandai buat so tak pernah cuba, eh faham tak? haha. lagipun, it's so pathetic to bake a cake for yourself T__T usually when i bake a cake, i'll eat a slice or two the rest semua orang lain habiskan -,- but i don't mind :)

kbye nak pergi usrah!

p/s : Hajar cakap kek macam Play-doh. grr.

WS#1

i've been joining Usrah for more than a year now (kot?) and since October this year, it's become a routine for me and my other "sisters" to attend Usrah every weekend. now i'm thinking, the Prophet said each one of us should spread His words even for ONE word. since i have a blog with 100+ followers (hehe) i should share with you readers what i've learned every week! sweet kan Allah sebab bagi ilham untuk i buat WS! eh, WS tu apa? WS stands for Weekly Sharing and insyaallah there would be a WS for each week. ALAMAK, RAJIN KE I NAK UPDATE BLOG TIAP-TIAP MINGGU? doakan, hehe.

before i get started, i want to clear some things. ehem. i'm not the most religious girl pakai biasa-biasa ilmu pun tak tinggi sangat bercakap tak pandai sangat apatah lagi nak dakwah-dakwah bagai ada boyfriend pulak tu, but don't judge me by my blog.. i'm a Muslim but not the perfect one. but i'm trying to become better each day, kata nak pergi syurga kena la jadi Muslim baik dan Allah sayang :D jom!

today Kak Farah asked, pernah rasa cinta Allah? kitorang macam keliru sikit, apa maksud "rasa cinta Allah"? one of us explained, it's the warm feeling you feel inside because Allah has given you so many things (nikmat) hari-hari dia boleh rasa cinta Allah.

cuba fikir, kenapa kita tak rasa cinta Allah sedangkan Allah dah bagi banyak sangat nikmat? hati kita gelap ke? hmph, kalau 24 jam online Facebook mana sempat nak bersyukur nikmat penglihatan yang Allah bagi. Kak Farah cakap, kalau orang yang tak pernah rasa cinta Allah, sakit. bukan sakit secara fizikal yang boleh baik kalau rajin makan ubat tapi hati yang sakit. a sick heart. takutnya, macam mana nak sembuhkan hati yang sakit? hati kat mana pun kita tak tahu, hati tu jantung (heart) ke? atau hati (liver) ke?

to treat a sick heart, turn to Allah. Allah kan ada, memang la tak nampak tapi doa je banyak-banyak Allah akan dengar.. Allah is the one that creates every part of your body and He knows you best! mesti Allah ada ubat untuk hati kita yang sakit :) kita tak pernah terlambat untuk raih cinta Allah. cuma kadang-kadang terleka kan? eh, terasa T__T

"Wahai orang-orang yang beriman! Bertakwalah kepada Allah dan carilah wasilah (jalan) untuk mendekatkan diri kepada-Nya dan berjihadlah (berjuanglah) di jalan-Nya agar kamu beruntung" (al-Maidah ayat 35)

hmm, tak tahu la sampai ke tak apa yang i cuba share. tak pandai sangat la nak cerita.. banyak lagi sebenarnya tapi ini yang paling terkesan di hati. harap-harap sampai la ye apa yang i cuba nak cakap?

:)

drowsy

i used to be so rajin writing down my thoughts and silly emotions. since i rarely do so now, does it mean that i'm a grown up now? huehue, not. second year is a busy year and i have lotsaaa homework to do but i'm not in the mood. eh, boleh ke macam tu? rasa hebat jadi "top scorer" terus malas nak belajar?! TAK, OKAY. i'm just so lazy, all i want to do is watch tv and eat a lot of ice cream and enjoy the cool weather.. macam mana ni, kerja banyak tak siap kottt *pangg diri sendiri* -,-

it was 15 degree this morning! okay fine, tak ada la salji bagai but i was cold enough to force me to sleep after Subuh huehue. i dah cakap belum i really like school now? because the classes are not too packed and there are times for me to take a break from all those lectures. too bad we are given only half an hour break for lunch and Zohor -,-

i usually spend the whole half an hour in surau, biasa la i memang lambat sikit bab-bab nak bersiap ni. for lunch, i would bring something from home. i don't eat nasi for lunch because Alif and i are supposed to be dieting now haha (tadi baru makan megiii) so everyday we would eat some bread and sausages, eggs and boiled cauliflower. everytime pun orang nak perli-perli sebab "makan sihat", apakah?!

FINE (emo) -,-

anyway,i'm thinking of an advanced new year resolution. here goes, I NEED TO BE MORE FOCUS NOW! kurangkan tidur?! okay hopefully this resolution will be fulfilled, not just some words to comfort myself sebab tidur banyak sangat and the homework is piling again.... T___T

pray for meee, kbye.

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

:)

RANDOM

clean your heart inside out. the ibadah, yes. and how you're treating everyone else around you. now that would be much much nicer :)


#self-reminder

The Golden Triangle

ehem, baru sekarang nak update? sikit lagi cerita nak basi -,- anyway, better late than never kan? okay tak tahu nak start daripada mana sebab banyak sangat nak cerita. EH TAK UPDATE PUN PASAL OIC?! er, lepas ni la. i kan sangat busy.. *alasan* lagipun it's been 3 days i diarrhea - ber** dan muntah-muntah and deman T__T

okay tak kisah la i sakit ke apa (redha) sekarang kena cerita jugak what happened during the last holidays. so what is this Golden Triangle? (rasa macam pernah cerita tapi tak apa cerita lagi sekali) it represents Delhi-Jaipur-Agra, kalau pergi Delhi mesti kena pergi the other 2 places and jarak between these 3 places are the same which is 5 hours -,-

mula-mula i macam tak nak pergi tau sebab the ticket flight is quite costly for a domestic flight tapiiii sebab most of the girls pergi takkan la nak tinggal sini sorang-sorang makanya i pergi dengan rela hati hiks tapi tak menyesal pergi serius, tak tipu. kitorang pergi 19 orang perempuan under package apa entah yang include hotels, breakfast, bas dan tourist guide. the package is quite affordable sebenarnya cuma terkilan sikit makanan tak sedap sangat. mungkin peluang untuk kurangkan makan? T__T

mula-mula sampai Delhi terus check in hotel sampai-sampai lapar gila makan segala benda yang ada (Alya dengan Intan bawak nasi goreng yeay!) dan terus tidur. awal-awal pagi terus gerak pergi Jaipur, lama jugak jalan. yeah, 5 hours kot.. sampai je terus pergi Amer (or Amber) Fort. nama je "fort" tapi sebenanya it's a palace. besar gilaaaa okay, too bad kitorang tak cukup masa nak explore seluruh fort sebab tutup sempena Asyura celebration. oh, Muslim kat India sambut Asyura besar-besaran (kalau kita puasa je kan?) gila meriah kot and i actually a bit scary..

anyway, lepas pergi Amer Fort kitorang jalan-jalan tengok Wind Palace, Water Palace and Pink City. Pink City sounds interesting kan? actually not haha sebab it is simply a city di mana most of the buildings are painted with pink colour. ceritanya macam ni, ada seorang raja yang i mesti la lupa apa nama dia nak sambut kedatangan putera daripada England so he must be so excited to see "mat salleh" for the first time haha so he painted all the buidings pink! gila orang banyak duit memang suka buat kerja pelik-pelik -,-

esoknya kitorang gerak pergi Agra! since kitorang bertolak dalam tengahari macam tu (sebab shopping heh) so sampai Agra malam so sampai terus tidur. pagi esoknya baru pergi Taj Mahal! Taj Mahal sangat cantik, berapa kali entah i cakap "Subhanallah cantiknyaaa" i bet everyone would say the same thing :") tahu kan cerita Shah Jehan dan Mumtaz? kalau tahu diam je sebab i nak cerita jugak. Shah Jehan sebenarnya ada EMPAT isteri. yeah yeah, that disappointed me a little.. anyway, dia paling sayangg Mumtaz sebab she is his own choice. the other wives were meant for political relationship je. Mumtaz sangat cantik and they met at a gem market. they got married afterwards and got 14 children! too bad Mumtaz meninggal umur 30-an sebab tak ada perancangan keluarga and 7 of their children pun tak survive. sedih kan? bila Mumtaz meninggal, dia mintak 3 perkara dengan Shah Jehan; (1) build a monument as a prove for their love (alolooo sweet sangatt), (2) take care of their daughters and (3) NEVER REMARRIED! and he never did :)

panjang lagi cerita sebenarnya tapi tak nak la korang bosan tiba-tiba belajar sejarah dunia kat sini -,-

lepas pergi Taj Mahal kitorang pergi Agra Fort, which is Shah Jehan's father's palace. cantik gila tempat ni, tapi dah banyak rosak sebab British dengki and rosakkan keindahan tempat tu?! sayang.

back to Delhi, kitorang pergi masjid apa i can't remember, India Gate, Lotus Temple and Qutub Minar. panjang gila nak cerita satu-satu apa kata kita tengok gambar pulak? jyeah! #gigih gila cerita semua benda :")

p/s : pictures in random order.

the first glimpse of Taj Mahal! :)

eh lupa cerita pasal niiii! ini Jantar Mantar which is sangat awesome.

kat sini the astronomers find out what's the time and location of Earth.

hebat kan? but it all comes from Islam's astronomers i bet :)

the building is actually a clock with accuracy of 2 seconds. gilaa.

Farahi the gorgeous and meee.

a random shop.

comel kaaan gambar ni? ini kat Taj Mahal. if you notice,

dekat pintu masuk ada tulisan khat. it's actually Surah Yasin :)

Jantar Mantar.

ini guest house tepi Taj Mahal.

on the way up to Amer Fort.

Water Palace. tempat ni exclusively for a king to play music.

he didn't want any distraction so he built a palace in water?! heh orang kaya..

supposedly you can see Agra Fort from here tapi ada kabus so tak nampak.

ada cerita sedih, Shah Jehan in his last years kena kurung dalam a room in Agra Fort

which he can see Taj Mahal from far. sedih kan?

he kept reminded of his sad love story sampai la meninggal..

btw nak tahu siapa kurung dia?

HIS FREAKING OWN SON.

gila kuasa punya pasal..

okay gila penat cerita. lain kali cerita pasal OIC (kalau rajin) haha bye. btw esok Umi datang siniiii *nangis sebab happy* :")

p/s : thanks Azrin and Sab for the planning and dealing with the money/tempe. thanks girlfriends for making me so bahagia huehuehue may Allah bless all of you sayangs :)

*sigh*

i wanted to blog about the trip to Delhi, Jaipur and Agra (they called it the Golden Triangle) but i have to wait for the nice pictures to be uploaded heh, i mana ada camera and my phone camera is only 3.2 mp what do you expect from me T,T

i'm glad i cancelled the trip to Manipal (tho i missed the chance to see my friends) because i can finally spend some time for myself, Toby and tonnes of homework. told you i'm a geek at heart :p lagipun Manipal panas and i don't want to leave the coolness of Bangalore huehue

i am always the arrogant girl who thinks she's right all the time, i don't "accept" advises and i have my own theories on life. but maybe i'm wrong and everyone else is right. i have to change and i have to be better. what matters the most is the intention and istiqamah. haa, istiqamah la yang payaah sekali -,- doakan! :)

eh apa merepek ni? tak payah tahu la. doakan ye? ;)

#1 : Mangalore

dear Allah, bless these sweet people :)

p/s : update more about OIC in Mangalore. off to Delhi now! *hugeee grin*

CUTIIIIII

but i'll be so busy exploring India hekhek. will update soon, with pictures and lotsa happiness! insyaallah :)

in my head #1

"..tho they knew"

now that's a head shot.

actually i do know. but i can't help it. it's hard because i started before i had something in my mind, i mean heart. now i could only avoid some things that can be avoided and pray hard that the right time would come.

i feel so bad.. Astaghfirullah :(

Sun-lazy-day

Sabtu dan Ahad kali ni sangat menggembirakaaaan :D sebabnya tak ada banyak kerja sangat yang nak kena submit makanya boleh baca buku sikit-sikit (sebab Progress Test lagi 10 hari ow maaan) sambil bermalas-malas. setiap 2-3 jam mesti nak kena "consolidate memory" bahasa mudahnya TIDUR haha harap-harap teori Dr Suresh ni menjadi la ye? :B

sekarang Bangalore sangat sejuk brr brrr tapi tak ada la salji bagai cuma nak tidur je kena pakai stoking haha sangat over. bila sejuk apa yang paling seronok buat? yes, tidur. weekend je i boleh tidur banyak macam ni kalau weekdays tak sempat tidur mesti stress fikir kerja apa nak kena submit esok T___T

oh ya, India memang negara panas mungkin lagi panas daripada Malaysia tapi ada certain places yang sejuk terutamanya North India contohnya Kashmir yang siap bersalji bagai. Bangalore is a small area yang paling selatan India sepatutnya panas gila la kan tapiiii i'm so lucky Bangalore kawasan tanah tinggi so temperature lebih kurang Cameron Highlands tapi lagiiiii sejuk brr brrr (sekarang cuba imagine Toby bulu kembang sambil purr sebab sejuk).

eh, kenapa jauh sangat menyimpang daripada cerita asal?! okay. semalam ada 2 housewarmings yang nak kena attend. i dengan seronoknya menerima jemputan makan-makan sebab memang malas gila la kan nak masak untuk lunch dah la Ruski dah habis T___T sangat bahagia tengahari makan nasik lauk kari daging, ayam masak merah dan udang masak apa tak sure tapi sedap gila and malamnya makan nasi ayam dengan roti jala! btw, terima kasih @Nur Imani (alamak lupa ni bukan Facebook nak tag) sebab sudi memenuhi permintaan saya nak makan kek batik :")

terima kasih juga kepada @Alya Azwan sebab cheese cake sedap dan saya makan hampir separuh pinggan (semalam ada orang complain dessert tak cukup maaf la, i la yang habiskan dessert heheheh). semua orang sangat pandai masak, i doakan semua orang cepat kahwin #random.

Ahad pun sangattt menyeronokkan walaupun tak ada housewarming i boleh lunch date dengan Alif! fine la kan, makan kat Gokul depan apartment i je tapi seronok jugak tak kira. tepat jam 12 nanti i dah tak seronok dah sebab esok sekolah woo sedihnya kenapa weekend pergi dengan begitu cepat? T___T

perasan tak, my Bahasa is so bad it's like i'm talking in weird bahasa baku. maybe i should blog more in English next time. kbai! :D

being human

i envy M. i want a friend like yours too. i want the optimism like yours too. i want the ignorance like yours too. i want a brain like yours too.

someone would read this and say, "Be grateful". i am, i just envy her, that's all.

maybe i'm not good enough.

Eiduladha

yeah baby, i'm thaaat busy sekarang baru sempat nak update pasal raya haji like, 2 weeks ago?! blame it on the new modular system, we got tonnes of homeworks to be done and submitted and too many housewarmings to be attended (eh?) huehue.

since almost everyone moved to new house with new housemates and new cat (this only applicable to me haha), we decided to do housewarming. it's kind of a culture here we masak-masak some food and invite our friends borak-borak gelak-gelak it's much fun i tell you.. tapi penat la sikit when it's actually our turn to masak -_-

our housewarming was on Saturday last week and i made two dishes! i cooked chicken rendang and kurma dagingg (korban) yang macam mana rasa pun i tak tahu sebab i forgot to turn off the gas the last thing i know it's already on the serving table?! Mira cooked the very spicy kuah kacang, it tasted really good. hebatt, i must say, since it's her first ever kuah kacang! :D our guest chef (..la sangat haha), Alif cooked the main dish, nasi tomato with ayam masak merah and acar. tapiiii i did most of the cuttings and told him to put more this and less that with the acar so basically it's my acar, not his haha.

i made some desserts too, i baked two apple caramel cakes and some banana split (without ice cream) and thanks to Kak Mier for the extramoiszt (ejaan nak poyos je kan haha) chocolate cake! tho the only thing that i tasted was the leftover melted chocolate.... -_-

mesti la i tak ada banyak gambar kan huehue (kalau ada pun malas nak upload) but for the sake of showing off HAHAHA i must upload some pictures!

kek tak cantik sangat tapi sedap okay.

notice something? haha yeah, those pots belong to some kakak seniors

we cook like once a year so takkannya nak beli pots besar kan huehue

wore the abaya Sha bought from Egypt.

Sha you're so insensitive sengaja beli saiz XXL just to remind me that i'm fat?!

T___T

...and this is the only picture i have during celebration at college.

i'm thaaat lazy to take pictures :p

bye!

thank YOU

cheers to the very person who is always there for me when i'm in need. people come and go but you stay. thank you :)

Toby!

Toby is naughty and fat.

today he jumps out of window and no one realizes he's outside until i heard him mewing non stop -_-

Pending

i have 1 pending post about a cancer campaign i went last week. but i have to give way for raya wish! this would be the second "Aidiladha di perantauan" :)

i like it hereee sebab sangat meriah and kalau nak korban pun sangaaat murah. here, untuk satu bahagian lembu it costs about Rs 1600 which equals to RM 100+ which is very cheap compared to what we have to pay in Malaysia. but it's not about how cheap or whatever it's about how sincere you are (someone said to me earlier). anyway, in India Aidiladha would be tomorrow. kitorang selalu lambat satu hari, even for Aidilfitri.

so happy Aidiladha people! i have something to share regarding the miracle of slaughtering in Islam. see how beautiful Islam is :")

This is a question-answer session with a medical practitioner on the benefits of the Islamic method of slaughtering animals.
- Question: Dr. John, if the veins that are in the front part of the neck of the animal are cut, what would happen to that animal?

- Dr. John: Scientifically speaking, when an animal or human has his veins that are found in the front part of the neck cut, he will faint immediately.
To clarify, he said that if someone was strangled, he would suffer extreme dizziness and lack of concentration because it is difficult for the blood to reach the brain, and if the duration of strangling was longer, he will lose sensation and faint.

- Question: So, cutting the veins that are in the front part of the neck of the slaughtered animal and letting the blood flow outside its body leads to unconsciousness?

- Dr. John: Yes, definitely.

- Question: Does the slaughtered animal feel any pain immediately after having its neck cut?

- Dr. John: Of course not, as it is totally unconscious.

- Question: Then, why does the animal do such spasmodic movements that give the feeling that it is in pain?

- Dr. John: This is because when the veins are cut without breaking the bones of the slaughtered animal’s neck, which is exactly the case in the Islamic way of slaughtering, the brain does not receive blood while the cerebrum is still alive and the neurological system that is at the back part of the neck is still linked to all the systems of the body. Thus, the neurological system sends signals to the heart, the muscles, the intestines and all the cells of the body to send blood to the cerebrum. This makes all the cells, intestines and muscles of the body make spasmodic movements to push the blood to the heart which sends the blood to the brain. However, the blood leaves the animal’s body instead of going to the brain because the veins of the neck are already cut. The neurological system continues to send signals and blood leaves the animal’s body until all the blood flows out. The widespread idea that animals suffer from pain when slaughtered by this method was scientifically proven to be wrong as animals faint and totally lose sensation as soon as the veins are cut.

- Question: Medically speaking, is it better to leave the blood inside the body of the animal or let the blood flow out of the body?

- Dr. John: Blood is one of the most fertile environments where germs grow and it also carries substances that are harmful for the human body. So, if the blood remained in the meat directly after the death of the animal, it will be a fertile environment for germs, in addition to the harmful substances that are present in it.

- Question: What do you think of the other ways of slaughtering animals especially the way that is used in most European countries which is hitting the animal on its head so that it would faint, then slaughtering it afterwards?

- Dr. John: This method has dangerous ramifications on the health of humans. This is because the animal dies slowly when it is hit in this method and this causes the membrane that lines the large intestines to lose its ability to retain the bacteria that is in the large intestines. Therefore, the bacteria penetrates the body of the animal, finds the blood and swims in it while interacting with it until it spreads throughout the entire body of the animal. The safest way of eating meat that is free from blood and bacteria is by getting rid of the blood of the animal and letting it flow out.

bye!

:(

i can feel that you're changing. tapi mesti la you deny. bai.

weekend at Nandi Hills

i decided to go to a "leadership convention" at Nandi Hills (refer to the last post) tho i'm not at all a leader (as in a MSA member which stands for Malaysian Student Association). but but it was so much fun! tak rasa isolated pun walaupun i bukan la MSA :') the facilitators referred us as "group of leaders" so we have to lead ourselves and everyone is so friendly and sweeeet i miss them already :)


kat sana i jumpa a friend from Manipal, Asilah (and her friend Farhana) she got a cool camera and she's really good with it too! that explains why we (as in me Mia Intan and Nisa) got so many pictures huehuehuehue. hari ni i freee sangat sebab i cuti Diwali so i akan upload gambar untuk semua orangg (haha poyos macam artis sikit).


we met an Indian guy who took music course here he's so good he knows everything about music out of nowhere we came out with an idea why don't we sing together? haha it was hilarious sebab kitorang (kecuali Intan) suara gila tak sedap pitching lari bagai tapi he said just go with it and have fun. sporting gila kan? i'm so sorry we ruined your reputation huehuehue.


i'm glad i decided to go :) so here are the pictures (in random order).

woo i actually grinned!
bukan senang i nak tunjuk gigi dalam gambar hehe

spot the hill!

the grand dinner! (with Farhana)

meet Asilah! :D

kbye! cuti tiga hariiiiii huehuehue.

weekend yeaaay!

every Monday, i couldn't wait for Saturday to come. makanya tiap-tiap minggu i sangat ternanti-nantikan hari Sabtu haha macam tak ada life gila setiap kali pun nak weekend datang cepat-cepat. bila sabtu dah sampai tiba-tiba ada program dengan MARA sekarang rasa nak menangis sebab tak nak pergi (sebelum ni beria-ria nak pergi) rasa macam BTN days all over again.


ceritanya macam ni, out of nowhere ada orang ajak pergi Nandi Hill katanya ada MARA Talk, bunyi macam best sebab last time pergi MARA Talk kat Chennai sangat best (walaupun perjalanan jauh) macam berbaloi la bazirkan weekend. makanya i semangat la nak pergi nak makan mewah hehe tiba-tiba tengok tentatif sebijik macam BTN eeiii geramnya kang dah membazir weekend i T__T


tak nak pergi! tapi dah bagi nama? boleh tak pagi esok baru buat keputusan, kalau rasa nak pergi cepat-cepat kemas baju kalau malas kena cepat-cepat iron baju and pergi sekolah :D pergi sekolah lagi best daripada kena repeat BTN heh.


btw result exam Final first year dah keluar! cuba tekaaa! heheheheheh Alhamdulillah i dapat dua A (Anatomy and Biochemistry) and A- for Physiology. dah agak daaaah, i selalu tak pandai nak elaborate panjang-panjang kalau jawab soalan Physio T___T tapiiii sangat bersyukur dapat title distinction hehehehe kbai mana boleh riak lebih-lebih nanti Allah tarik balik semua nikmat. tahniah semua orang!


banyak gila kerja!! kbai nak sambung buat kerja.

Stress

tak tak, i tak ada exams/quizzes/mcq or anything related dalam masa terdekat. i bukan stress sebab nak exams ke ape tapi stress sebab...


1) ...tiba-tiba sistem belajar secara "tradisional" kat kolej i dah berubah jadi sistem "modular" i don't really understand what it means but the dean said she wants to "Malaysionize" our learning system here (as in such word exist?). she said she wants us to "fit" in Malaysian working environment that we don't have to follow the Indian "traditional" system anymore. kalau macam tu bawak je la kitorang balik Malaysia, what's the pint of studying in India anymore?


but i kind of getting used to this system (sebab dah belajar selama 2 minggu), it means less classes and more self-studying. i always love lecture classes! but having to "self-studying" buat i jadi curious and jadi makin rajin nak belajar. eh faham tak? selama ni semua benda nak lecturers je cakap tapi sekarang kalau kau nak tahu baca la sendiri tak faham baru tanya lecturers.


okay, apa yang menyebabkan i stress adalah ... i tak faham format exams macam mana?! integrated la, practicals jadi 1 hari la, tiba-tiba professional exams mansuh la eeeiii apa semua ni i tak faham la tak ada orang nak terangkan betul-betul T_____T bosan la macam ni bye.


2) dulu ada 3 subjects je. makanya ada 3 record books yang nak kena settle every weekend (tunggu weekend je kan baru nak settle huehuehue), selalunya record book Physiology memang tak sentuh la kan sebab lecturer baik sangat bukannya nak tanya dah siap ke belum esok nak exam (practical) baru lecturer mintak mesti la kena tunggu last minute baru nak siapkan.


sekarang ada 4 subjects dan 4 record books nak siapkan every weekend. lecturers sekarang sangat strict (sebab sistem baru) semua benda nak bagi markah, attitude, dressing, communication skills etc etc boleh tak nak menangis sebab stress? malas gila nak sentuh record books rela update blog T____T


3) batuk dan diarrhea tak baik lagiiii. stress la macam ni setiap kali lepas makan terus berlari masuk tandas.


4) esok kena bagi "talk" untuk juniors baru masuk. macam mana nak bagi talk, juniors pun lagi tua daripada i?! sebab ada budak KMB/KMS yang buat persedian 2 tahun baru datang sini makanya diorang dah 20 i baru 19?! T____T


doakan i tabah. bye.

back in India

2 busy days. new lecturers, new rules and regulations, new subjects and new books, new specs (eh?), everything is new and SO FAST (i have piles of homework to be submitted by the end of the week) i barely have the time to breath properly! i don't like the current lecture hall i want my old chair in the previous lecture hall :(


okay jangan emosional lebih-lebih/ ehem. now i'm learning 4 new subjects - Pathology, Pharmacology, Microbiology (bosannya i tak minat langsung nak tahu life cycle tape worm?!) and Forensic Medicine. textbooks tak ada lagi, nama tak tulis lagi kat buku, record books tak balut lagi haaah malasnya..


anyway, a classmate of mine is now a married woman! wow, 20 and married! i wouldn't be that hebat to carry all the responsibilities as a wife at such a young age..


*too sleepy to write i'll continue this as soon as i'm awake*

i actually continue writing this 5 days later?!

anyway, i demam dah dua hari. asal balik India (as in lepas cuti yang lama) mesti kena diarrhea and demam. sebenarnya demam semalam semalam sebab diarrhea (infection kot) and macam dah elok sikit then pergi main hujan dengan Ama and Iman padan muka dah demam balik T___T

sila doakan i tabah dah rajin baca buku oh and, tempe yag nak pasang internet kat rumah kitorang datang cepat sikit. rasa macam tak ada life gila bila internet rumah kena potong heh. kbye.

Looking back

this used to be my favourite poem. i read it over and over again until i cry. gila emosional -,- but i'm so busy these past couple of years i barely remember any word of it. tiba-tiba terjumpa balik?! saje kan nak buat i emosional mentang-mentang dah kena balik India...


sepi itu adalah malam tanpa suara cengkerik
sepi itu adalah laut tanpa ombak
sepi itu adalah langit tanpa bintang
sepi itu adalah aku tanpamu
tanpa suaramu
tanpa jasadmu
tanpa cita-citamu
kau datang mengucapkan salam
lalu kau pergi tanpa pesan
aku kau tinggalkan bersama memori silam.



it's so miserable! come one man, there's no time to dwell on past memories. now it's time to look forward and back to India. eh?


doakan i - selamat pergi selamat sampai, gagah heret semua bags, tak menangis hingus meleleh sila sedar diri i budak tahun dua bukan budak baru fly (eh, tahun depan dah 20?!) dan tak teruja sangat jumpa buah hati (huehuehue) yang dah 2 minggu tak jumpa :") kbye.

little sissy

selamat exam! PMR je kot huehuehuehue (riak).

p/s : what i'm wearing is called tudung malas, which i wear everyday at home haha

ramblings

1. i don't like K-pop, K-dramas, K-couples or whatever K that comes from Korea. i only like some of K-food (K-food haha) and i don't like K-too-beautiful-males these guys definitely turn me off. call me lame or noob or whatever i don't actually care (this goes to my little sister who calls me lame and Sha who sneers at me because i prefer Malays) -,-


2. i went out with Sha last Sunday (or is it Monday?). last time she came to my house and left her handbag (senget) so i went to see her to return her handbag and teman her buying stuffs since she's going back to Egypt next week. i was proud of myself because i can resist buying all those lovely blouses :') (sebenarnya takut Umi marah sebab habiskan duit beli baju lagii)


3. i got 2 blouses from an aunt (i called her Chu) heheheheh. last time i got her a white and black saree with matching shawl form India and she's willing to become my bussiness partner! but i don't think Mom likes the idea haha.


4. R and A remove me from their Facebook friend lists?! fine, merajuk tak nak pergi majlis tunang kau (tiba-tiba). i was like "rude gila kau yang add aku dulu kot pehal nak remove grr", walhal selama ni i remove orang sesuka hati padan muka T___T


5. my blog is full of craps if compared to this *insaf* T___T

Raya at my house

we had a Raya feast at my house yesterday. banyaaak gila makanan ada nasi ayam, laksa, spaghetti with homemade sauce (huehue), trifle, sate with kuah kacang, ketupat with rendang daging, kuih tradisional (tak tahu nama apa), fruits and some nasi minyak (some as in makanan tambahan takut-takut makanan tak cukup). nasi ayam was awesome! and i think everyone likes my trifle heheheheh.


the best part of it is Alif was there too! he came all the way from JB and he spent one whole day in Terengganu and back to JB again. he did promise me to come and see my parents but i didn't expect him to keep the promise because Terengganu is not dekat, jauh kot. 9 jam perjalanan kot. i won't mind if he don't come but he did! :')


since Umi said the feast is kecil-kecilan, i only invited some of my friends. kalau ajak pun semua orang dah start balik kolej tinggal i sorang-sorang je kat sini (emo) T____T thank you Sha Faten Yah and Miza for coming. but i am truly sorry i was so busy in the kitchen tak sempat nak layan sangat..


Ira came home with 40 classmates haha reminds me of zaman i muda-muda dulu pantang boleh keluar asrama seronok bukan main -,- i don't know if Ira really loves me (eh?) or she's just showing off in front of her friends. out of nowhere she sauddenly said "sayaaaang Angah" eh eh tiba-tiba haha.


these are some pictures i manage to snap during the chaos (haha);

Nana and Dhia

dua-dua baju terangkat, haa elok sangat la tu -,-

Haikal and his sisters

"You nak jadi macam Azam eh?"
#Azam is a friend yang sangat suka posing poyos nasib baik hensem eh eh.

"You macam gay" -,-

every kid loves the pool tak sah kalau tak ada budak
yang sengaja/tak sengaja jatuh

Yah Sha Miza and Faten thanks for comingg :D

eh?

kbye!

Kbye

my friend, F is leaving for UK by 15th. come on, why i have to be so sad about seeing her leaving? not that i would be in Malaysia if she's here.


maybe because she's so special i don't want her to leave, without seeing me first T____T


F and i are close friends back in high school. we always do things together and i spent most of time with her. she's so kind and loyal and i was so bossy and ignorant i always forget to appreciate her presence.


when i was 15, i wanted to do a lot of things and i wanted to be the person i never got the chance to be. i never really care about having a best friend i thought i could live for myself and i wanted other people to see me as an independent girl.


there was one day F and i were heading somewhere (can't remember) we were hand in hand like always. a cikgu saw us and tegur, "amboiii korang ni berkepitt je setiap masa". i know she's just joking but i took it very seriously. tak cool okay bila cikgu cakap macam tu. so i said to F, "eeii lain kali jangan la pegang tangan kita depan cikgu malu la".


when i was 15, i was rapat with a guy that i secretly like. but trusting a guy when you were just 15 is the stupidest thing. he wanted to see me because there was a rumour about us "together" and he was so mad. i asked F to teman, i said "duduk je sebelah kita tapi jangan cakap apa-apa". the guy and i had a row and i was yelling at him. i was so frustrated i ran back to my room and there she was asking me if i'm okay.


another day, i asked F to teman me (again) to a competition. i said to her "masa kita kat atas pentas nanti, jangan pandang kita pun nanti kita nervous". when i was on the stage i took a glance at her and there she was, looking out of the door and trying not to stare at me.


i was 16 when i learnt a lot of things. i wanted to have someone close to me, someone that's kind and loyal and i was (still am) ashamed of how ignorant i was towards F. so i said i was sorry. i truly was.


but i was just 16, i forgot what i had promised and maybe i was too late when i wanted to say sorry again. suddenly F was not the same F i used to know. it was her turn to become the ignorant one in our friendship.


we argued about a lot of things. satu hari, i asked her to make Milo for me. she said it's my turn not hers. later at night she said "why it's always has to be me? you said i'm your best friend but why didn't you do like you said you would?". it was the first time i ever seen her cry. i was so sorry but i said nothing.


when i was 16, i did a lot of things to make sure she forgave me. we might seem as close but i could feel the distant every time we spent time together. but i always so happy when she was there for me.


i sayang her so much i kissed her at the mouth haha. we wore green kebaya during a grand dinner. we ate a lot of Maggi together and we waited for each other for every lunch and dinner. we sat next to each other in classes and i taught her Add Maths, Biology, Chemistry.. and she taught me Maths. we exchange presents during out birthdays and .... fine, there were too many memories i couldn't remember all.


i said i was sorry so many time she said "jangan cakap benda yang kita tak nak dengar lagi kalau tak kita tak nak cakap dengan kamu lagi".


when i was 16 and it was the last day of school i said "jangan menangis masa kita cakap selamat tinggal nanti sebab there's no goodbyes in friendship". we hugged but we didn't cry. but she did cry when she said goodbyes to our friends.


tadi she said "status kau ada kaitan dengan aku ke?". of course it does, i was so sedih i can't hug you goodbye :(


i am so sorry i was (and still am) not a good friend. i am so sorry i did a lot of bad things to you. hidup baik-baik. belajar rajin-rajin. sayang kau so much haha please don't read this i'd be so malu if you do haha kbye :D

comelnya -_-

By Daily Mail Reporter - Suri Cruise set a cracking pace as she hurried to her gymnastics class in New York today.

Not even a pair of heels - her favourite, if controversial, accessory - were able to slow her down as she arrived at Chelsea Piers, a sports complex in Manhattan, with her mother Katie Holmes.

Looking much older than her tender age, she skipped along with a lilac handbag on her arm and a doll in the other.

Suri is rumoured to have more than 130 pairs of shoes, many of which have been custom made. Actress mum Katie Holmes has previously defended her daughter's footwear, saying: 'They are actually ballroom dancing shoes for kids,' Katie said. 'I found them for her and she loves them.'

Read more: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/tvshowbiz/article-2035200/Suri-Cruise-masters-running-heels-tender-age-dashes-gymnastics-class.html#ixzz1XimNghOL

p/s : i found a website full of Suri's pictures. why she has to be so cute?!