this used to be my favourite poem. i read it over and over again until i cry. gila emosional -,- but i'm so busy these past couple of years i barely remember any word of it. tiba-tiba terjumpa balik?! saje kan nak buat i emosional mentang-mentang dah kena balik India...
sepi itu adalah malam tanpa suara cengkerik
sepi itu adalah laut tanpa ombak
sepi itu adalah langit tanpa bintang
sepi itu adalah aku tanpamu
tanpa suaramu
tanpa jasadmu
tanpa cita-citamu
kau datang mengucapkan salam
lalu kau pergi tanpa pesan
aku kau tinggalkan bersama memori silam.
it's so miserable! come one man, there's no time to dwell on past memories. now it's time to look forward and back to India. eh?
doakan i - selamat pergi selamat sampai, gagah heret semua bags, tak menangis hingus meleleh sila sedar diri i budak tahun dua bukan budak baru fly (eh, tahun depan dah 20?!) dan tak teruja sangat jumpa buah hati (huehuehue) yang dah 2 minggu tak jumpa :") kbye.
Friday, September 30, 2011
Thursday, September 29, 2011
little sissy
selamat exam! PMR je kot huehuehuehue (riak).
p/s : what i'm wearing is called tudung malas, which i wear everyday at home haha
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
ramblings
1. i don't like K-pop, K-dramas, K-couples or whatever K that comes from Korea. i only like some of K-food (K-food haha) and i don't like K-too-beautiful-males these guys definitely turn me off. call me lame or noob or whatever i don't actually care (this goes to my little sister who calls me lame and Sha who sneers at me because i prefer Malays) -,-
2. i went out with Sha last Sunday (or is it Monday?). last time she came to my house and left her handbag (senget) so i went to see her to return her handbag and teman her buying stuffs since she's going back to Egypt next week. i was proud of myself because i can resist buying all those lovely blouses :') (sebenarnya takut Umi marah sebab habiskan duit beli baju lagii)
3. i got 2 blouses from an aunt (i called her Chu) heheheheh. last time i got her a white and black saree with matching shawl form India and she's willing to become my bussiness partner! but i don't think Mom likes the idea haha.
4. R and A remove me from their Facebook friend lists?! fine, merajuk tak nak pergi majlis tunang kau (tiba-tiba). i was like "rude gila kau yang add aku dulu kot pehal nak remove grr", walhal selama ni i remove orang sesuka hati padan muka T___T
5. my blog is full of craps if compared to this *insaf* T___T
2. i went out with Sha last Sunday (or is it Monday?). last time she came to my house and left her handbag (senget) so i went to see her to return her handbag and teman her buying stuffs since she's going back to Egypt next week. i was proud of myself because i can resist buying all those lovely blouses :') (sebenarnya takut Umi marah sebab habiskan duit beli baju lagii)
3. i got 2 blouses from an aunt (i called her Chu) heheheheh. last time i got her a white and black saree with matching shawl form India and she's willing to become my bussiness partner! but i don't think Mom likes the idea haha.
4. R and A remove me from their Facebook friend lists?! fine, merajuk tak nak pergi majlis tunang kau (tiba-tiba). i was like "rude gila kau yang add aku dulu kot pehal nak remove grr", walhal selama ni i remove orang sesuka hati padan muka T___T
5. my blog is full of craps if compared to this *insaf* T___T
Friday, September 16, 2011
Raya at my house
we had a Raya feast at my house yesterday. banyaaak gila makanan ada nasi ayam, laksa, spaghetti with homemade sauce (huehue), trifle, sate with kuah kacang, ketupat with rendang daging, kuih tradisional (tak tahu nama apa), fruits and some nasi minyak (some as in makanan tambahan takut-takut makanan tak cukup). nasi ayam was awesome! and i think everyone likes my trifle heheheheh.
the best part of it is Alif was there too! he came all the way from JB and he spent one whole day in Terengganu and back to JB again. he did promise me to come and see my parents but i didn't expect him to keep the promise because Terengganu is not dekat, jauh kot. 9 jam perjalanan kot. i won't mind if he don't come but he did! :')
since Umi said the feast is kecil-kecilan, i only invited some of my friends. kalau ajak pun semua orang dah start balik kolej tinggal i sorang-sorang je kat sini (emo) T____T thank you Sha Faten Yah and Miza for coming. but i am truly sorry i was so busy in the kitchen tak sempat nak layan sangat..
Ira came home with 40 classmates haha reminds me of zaman i muda-muda dulu pantang boleh keluar asrama seronok bukan main -,- i don't know if Ira really loves me (eh?) or she's just showing off in front of her friends. out of nowhere she sauddenly said "sayaaaang Angah" eh eh tiba-tiba haha.
these are some pictures i manage to snap during the chaos (haha);
dua-dua baju terangkat, haa elok sangat la tu -,-
Haikal and his sisters
"You nak jadi macam Azam eh?"
#Azam is a friend yang sangat suka posing poyos nasib baik hensem eh eh.
"You macam gay" -,-
Yah Sha Miza and Faten thanks for comingg :D
eh?
the best part of it is Alif was there too! he came all the way from JB and he spent one whole day in Terengganu and back to JB again. he did promise me to come and see my parents but i didn't expect him to keep the promise because Terengganu is not dekat, jauh kot. 9 jam perjalanan kot. i won't mind if he don't come but he did! :')
since Umi said the feast is kecil-kecilan, i only invited some of my friends. kalau ajak pun semua orang dah start balik kolej tinggal i sorang-sorang je kat sini (emo) T____T thank you Sha Faten Yah and Miza for coming. but i am truly sorry i was so busy in the kitchen tak sempat nak layan sangat..
Ira came home with 40 classmates haha reminds me of zaman i muda-muda dulu pantang boleh keluar asrama seronok bukan main -,- i don't know if Ira really loves me (eh?) or she's just showing off in front of her friends. out of nowhere she sauddenly said "sayaaaang Angah" eh eh tiba-tiba haha.
these are some pictures i manage to snap during the chaos (haha);
Nana and Dhia
dua-dua baju terangkat, haa elok sangat la tu -,-
Haikal and his sisters
"You nak jadi macam Azam eh?"
#Azam is a friend yang sangat suka posing poyos nasib baik hensem eh eh.
"You macam gay" -,-
every kid loves the pool tak sah kalau tak ada budak
yang sengaja/tak sengaja jatuh
yang sengaja/tak sengaja jatuh
Yah Sha Miza and Faten thanks for comingg :D
eh?kbye!
Monday, September 12, 2011
Kbye
my friend, F is leaving for UK by 15th. come on, why i have to be so sad about seeing her leaving? not that i would be in Malaysia if she's here.
maybe because she's so special i don't want her to leave, without seeing me first T____T
F and i are close friends back in high school. we always do things together and i spent most of time with her. she's so kind and loyal and i was so bossy and ignorant i always forget to appreciate her presence.
when i was 15, i wanted to do a lot of things and i wanted to be the person i never got the chance to be. i never really care about having a best friend i thought i could live for myself and i wanted other people to see me as an independent girl.
there was one day F and i were heading somewhere (can't remember) we were hand in hand like always. a cikgu saw us and tegur, "amboiii korang ni berkepitt je setiap masa". i know she's just joking but i took it very seriously. tak cool okay bila cikgu cakap macam tu. so i said to F, "eeii lain kali jangan la pegang tangan kita depan cikgu malu la".
when i was 15, i was rapat with a guy that i secretly like. but trusting a guy when you were just 15 is the stupidest thing. he wanted to see me because there was a rumour about us "together" and he was so mad. i asked F to teman, i said "duduk je sebelah kita tapi jangan cakap apa-apa". the guy and i had a row and i was yelling at him. i was so frustrated i ran back to my room and there she was asking me if i'm okay.
another day, i asked F to teman me (again) to a competition. i said to her "masa kita kat atas pentas nanti, jangan pandang kita pun nanti kita nervous". when i was on the stage i took a glance at her and there she was, looking out of the door and trying not to stare at me.
i was 16 when i learnt a lot of things. i wanted to have someone close to me, someone that's kind and loyal and i was (still am) ashamed of how ignorant i was towards F. so i said i was sorry. i truly was.
but i was just 16, i forgot what i had promised and maybe i was too late when i wanted to say sorry again. suddenly F was not the same F i used to know. it was her turn to become the ignorant one in our friendship.
we argued about a lot of things. satu hari, i asked her to make Milo for me. she said it's my turn not hers. later at night she said "why it's always has to be me? you said i'm your best friend but why didn't you do like you said you would?". it was the first time i ever seen her cry. i was so sorry but i said nothing.
when i was 16, i did a lot of things to make sure she forgave me. we might seem as close but i could feel the distant every time we spent time together. but i always so happy when she was there for me.
i sayang her so much i kissed her at the mouth haha. we wore green kebaya during a grand dinner. we ate a lot of Maggi together and we waited for each other for every lunch and dinner. we sat next to each other in classes and i taught her Add Maths, Biology, Chemistry.. and she taught me Maths. we exchange presents during out birthdays and .... fine, there were too many memories i couldn't remember all.
i said i was sorry so many time she said "jangan cakap benda yang kita tak nak dengar lagi kalau tak kita tak nak cakap dengan kamu lagi".
when i was 16 and it was the last day of school i said "jangan menangis masa kita cakap selamat tinggal nanti sebab there's no goodbyes in friendship". we hugged but we didn't cry. but she did cry when she said goodbyes to our friends.
tadi she said "status kau ada kaitan dengan aku ke?". of course it does, i was so sedih i can't hug you goodbye :(
i am so sorry i was (and still am) not a good friend. i am so sorry i did a lot of bad things to you. hidup baik-baik. belajar rajin-rajin. sayang kau so much haha please don't read this i'd be so malu if you do haha kbye :D
maybe because she's so special i don't want her to leave, without seeing me first T____T
F and i are close friends back in high school. we always do things together and i spent most of time with her. she's so kind and loyal and i was so bossy and ignorant i always forget to appreciate her presence.
when i was 15, i wanted to do a lot of things and i wanted to be the person i never got the chance to be. i never really care about having a best friend i thought i could live for myself and i wanted other people to see me as an independent girl.
there was one day F and i were heading somewhere (can't remember) we were hand in hand like always. a cikgu saw us and tegur, "amboiii korang ni berkepitt je setiap masa". i know she's just joking but i took it very seriously. tak cool okay bila cikgu cakap macam tu. so i said to F, "eeii lain kali jangan la pegang tangan kita depan cikgu malu la".
when i was 15, i was rapat with a guy that i secretly like. but trusting a guy when you were just 15 is the stupidest thing. he wanted to see me because there was a rumour about us "together" and he was so mad. i asked F to teman, i said "duduk je sebelah kita tapi jangan cakap apa-apa". the guy and i had a row and i was yelling at him. i was so frustrated i ran back to my room and there she was asking me if i'm okay.
another day, i asked F to teman me (again) to a competition. i said to her "masa kita kat atas pentas nanti, jangan pandang kita pun nanti kita nervous". when i was on the stage i took a glance at her and there she was, looking out of the door and trying not to stare at me.
i was 16 when i learnt a lot of things. i wanted to have someone close to me, someone that's kind and loyal and i was (still am) ashamed of how ignorant i was towards F. so i said i was sorry. i truly was.
but i was just 16, i forgot what i had promised and maybe i was too late when i wanted to say sorry again. suddenly F was not the same F i used to know. it was her turn to become the ignorant one in our friendship.
we argued about a lot of things. satu hari, i asked her to make Milo for me. she said it's my turn not hers. later at night she said "why it's always has to be me? you said i'm your best friend but why didn't you do like you said you would?". it was the first time i ever seen her cry. i was so sorry but i said nothing.
when i was 16, i did a lot of things to make sure she forgave me. we might seem as close but i could feel the distant every time we spent time together. but i always so happy when she was there for me.
i sayang her so much i kissed her at the mouth haha. we wore green kebaya during a grand dinner. we ate a lot of Maggi together and we waited for each other for every lunch and dinner. we sat next to each other in classes and i taught her Add Maths, Biology, Chemistry.. and she taught me Maths. we exchange presents during out birthdays and .... fine, there were too many memories i couldn't remember all.
i said i was sorry so many time she said "jangan cakap benda yang kita tak nak dengar lagi kalau tak kita tak nak cakap dengan kamu lagi".
when i was 16 and it was the last day of school i said "jangan menangis masa kita cakap selamat tinggal nanti sebab there's no goodbyes in friendship". we hugged but we didn't cry. but she did cry when she said goodbyes to our friends.
tadi she said "status kau ada kaitan dengan aku ke?". of course it does, i was so sedih i can't hug you goodbye :(
i am so sorry i was (and still am) not a good friend. i am so sorry i did a lot of bad things to you. hidup baik-baik. belajar rajin-rajin. sayang kau so much haha please don't read this i'd be so malu if you do haha kbye :D
comelnya -_-
By Daily Mail Reporter - Suri Cruise set a cracking pace as she hurried to her gymnastics class in New York today.
Not even a pair of heels - her favourite, if controversial, accessory - were able to slow her down as she arrived at Chelsea Piers, a sports complex in Manhattan, with her mother Katie Holmes.
Looking much older than her tender age, she skipped along with a lilac handbag on her arm and a doll in the other.
Suri is rumoured to have more than 130 pairs of shoes, many of which have been custom made. Actress mum Katie Holmes has previously defended her daughter's footwear, saying: 'They are actually ballroom dancing shoes for kids,' Katie said. 'I found them for her and she loves them.'
p/s : i found a website full of Suri's pictures. why she has to be so cute?!
Wednesday, September 7, 2011
first time beli baju online sebab tu seronok heheh
the parcel arrived this morning and i was so excited i forgot the finish my breakfast! biasa la, kali pertama dapat parcel (selain daripada MARA atau MSU) heheheh. thanks to Sabrina Jasman, check out her blog mana la tahu dia ada baju nak jual lagi :)
i always love cardigans and blazers because most of my baju are short-sleeves and it is so troublesome to wear an inner (and panas too) so i usually match my blouses/tshirts with cardigans. especially when i wake up late and have to rush to class haha.
anyway, the blazer is actually pink in colour but its not too pink it may be light brown er, not sure -.- it is short and it fits me well. and it's cheap too! haa, i dah pandai berjimat sekarang sila rasa bangga haha.
after this i want to have an online banking account (baru nak ada haha bosan gila) and it'd be easier for me to shop more (bagi alasan kat Abah senang nak beli tiket flight) heheheh kbye!
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
MAHU
i used to be slimmer (not slim, but slimmer compared to now). back then i always complained about how i look and once i stopped eating rice for a month the result was satisfying (remember this?).
that was years ago. now i'm in India i have money and i have a friend to teman me makan-makan i'm getting so fat i should be in The Biggest Loser. everyone i met during raya wouldn't stop reminding me how fat i am and even the doctors are suggesting it is best for me to reduce my weight (due to fragile blood vessels hmph).
this is boring, don't you guys have better things to do that worrying about my weight? thanks anyway but i'll be fine. i'd stop eating and start exercising. once i lose all my fat don't say anything like "eh, dah kurus tak cukup makan ke kat India?" i'd slap you in the face (heh). hmph.
bye.
Sunday, September 4, 2011
appointment with doctor
yes, that's what happened yesterday -.-' Dr Zohdi (kot) is an orthopedic and he seemed excited to have a medical student as a patient. he explained in details about x-ray, bones, nerves... *yawn*.. i always hate learning about x-ray and bones they bore me haha.
it was Umi's idea to see a specialist she was so worried when a previous doctor said my numb left shoulder may be due to a bent backbone that might compress my nerve. blame that doctor (tak memasal haha)!
she gave me calcium too (she said it might help my backbone to grow normally), when i asked Dr Zohdi about the significance of calcium he just made a face and said it's up to me to continue taking the pills or to drop it. he said "kalau nak calcium lebih baik makan vitamin D".
tahu kenapa? sebab vitamin D la yang tolong absorption (penyerapan?) calcium dalam badan. as in, kalau tak ada vitamin D badan tak akan serap calcium. usually calcium ada in every food that we take. makanya, if i continue to take calcium my bones might degenerate (osteoporosis) due to too much calcium. haa, kang bahaya..
eeeiiii he wouldn't stop laughing at me! he said "ramai budak-budak medical datang bawak mak ayah jumpa saya.." i know what he's trying to say! he means, budak-budak medical ni terpengaruh sangat dengan apa yang diorang belajar.. fine -.-' sampai i nak keluar nak tutup pintu pun dia tak habis gelak lagi hmph.
at least i learn my lesson. eh, bukan stop jumpa doktor bila ada symptoms pelik-pelik (imaginasi haha) tapi kena selalu exercise and jaga makan bukan duduk rumah belajar je badan akan jadi penat/lemah bila tak berpeluh okay jom rajin jogging lepas ni (paksa Amalina temankan jogging) T__T
kbye.
Saturday, September 3, 2011
macam dulu-dulu
i thought things would be awkward.
thank God it was fun fun fun! :D
i miss you guys.
:')
p/s : excuse my shades Malaysia is too hot *poyos* haha
i miss you guys.
:')
p/s : excuse my shades Malaysia is too hot *poyos* haha
Thursday, September 1, 2011
Duo
the other day i was browsing Abah's bb and i found an old picture of me! it was almost a year ago i was crying my heart out for not wanting to leave my family for India haha how immature *shrug shoulders* HAHA. anyway, the first year of MBBS is over i would be a second year student soon woo!
eh, sebenarnya tak nak cakap pasal ni tiba-tiba je cakap -.-'
so today i went beraya with my parents we went to see Umi's sick friend. this is not the usual sakit as is sakit sikit-sikit but she has cancer and Umi said she might be dying T__T initially it is breast cancer but the cells invade her bones and now it is both breast and bone cancers.
do you want to know why these cells invade bones? why bones why not other organs? it is because breast's lymphatic drainage is continuous with that of backbone. and the cells might "fall" on ovaries too.
it would be easy right if the cancer cells are localized on a particular site then you can chop off the infected site and poof, no more cancer. too bad it is not that easy. blame lymphatic drainage for that hmph.
it is so awkward to visit a sick friend. how do i supposed to act? do i have to look sympathetic and speak slowly? or do i have to act happy and cheer her up? hmph this is hard. i am no good at comforting people i guess.
and i'm having an appointment with a doctor next week. let's pray that i am not too sick to be as happy as i am now :)
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