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Hai.


The kids are asleep and I am sitting upright to make sure the food is well digested before I lie down for a nap (or I'd end up vomiting the whole thing).


I'm craving for sweet sweeet food but A gets the idea that I have eaten too much sweet food already so, sorry baby, we ain't getting any brownies for today.


They said if the mothers are craving for sweet food they probably are having boys. But you know they said too many things already I barely register any of it any more haha. But I have an instinct. I think it's a ..... :p


Its boring when the kids are asleep but when they are up and wild I want them to sleep until their parents come and get them haha. Even A is sleeping now. I blame the weather it's half raining and half bright thank God we live in the south so we are not that affected with the current high temperature (you know you are out of topic to talk about when you start talking about the weather).


I will see Mom in two weeks time!! By then I'd be 16 weeks *gasp* lets hope I'm one of those mothers with small bumps (harapan) my jeans are getting smaller... and a random auntie said eh dah nampak bump! And I'm barely 14 weeks.....


Pregnant mothers are annoying all they want to do is talk about baby stuff and all the food they want to eat :p


I had a bad dream last night. But I try to shove it to the back of my mind so let's not talk about it.


I miss this one book! *remind self to ask my sister where is the book lets hope she did not accidentally lend it to any of her students*


I feel nauseous whenever I eat chicken. Like right now.


I want brownies *wails*.


I think I can hear one of the kids is crying. Bye.

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Hi. It's the second day of the new year already jeez. Life is pretty much the same tho lol. I spent the (almost) the whole day lying on the bed scrolling the Instagram timeline aimlessly.. now that I passed the eat-vomit-sleep-repeat phase I want to do something more! I want to read more books but I'm out of good books to read.. eh, not really but I've read 4-5 books in two weeks time I need a break I want to do something else.


I want to go jalan but I think we are going to be jobless for few more months so we need to save up some money (we are going to have a baby remember!) so that's out of question for the time being.


And my MIL still don't allow me to help her in the kitchen or lifting heavy things which surprisingly include the laundry basket haha. So to make myself useful I sweep the floor and ... yeah, fold my own clothes... and help her with the babies (she's a babysitter) but I don't think I help much I simply distract the kids when they start screaming and entertain their endless questions. I'd leave the poopy business to my MIL haha but once she went out and I think I was the last choice she had so I ended up cleaning up the poop by myself okay haha (baby was fine but I was scarred for life).


I like teh tarik now! Which is weird because I usually a coffee person but nowadays coffee gives me so much heartburn so no more coffee for me now T_T But of course my sister said I shouldn't be taking to much sugar okay fine I have to cut daily teh tarik dose. Earlier I couldn't even drink plain water I had constipation and it was bad, really.


What is my point here haha


Sab came to Johor I said to her datang la siniii come and meet me so she came and we made plans. Then my car broke down and I have to cancel. And she's going back home tomorrow. Okaaaay. I would hate me if I were her but it's not really anyone's fault suddenly the our car "dried up" so we need to keep it cool for a while.


Since I am the pregnant one I blamed everything on A. I stopped talking to him and he said he was so sorry then I asked "Why are you sorry?" haha boys are clueless aren't they?


I want to eat pad thai like we used to have in Lan Thai or Beijing Bites in Bangalore! Ok malam ni misi mencari pad thai yay. MIL asked what is pad thai I said it's like kuew tiau with crushed peanuts she said "Alamak senang gila masak dalam peti ais banyak kacang!" haha it's not me it's the baby! :p

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Its the last day of 2015 and I have not made up any new resolution yet. I was busy with stuff -- I barely think about what I have done so far (like I always do when the year is ending).


2015 has been a weird year haha seriously! Because I have gone through so many changes without me realizing it. I probably had realized it but again I had not think about it much. The marriage has changed me to some extent and lets just pray all the changes are good changes haha.


I think I am more laid back now. I try to enjoy the moments and most of the time I enjoy doing silly things with A. School was fun despite going back and forth between three different hospitals.... I still don't have much fond memories in Baptist Hospital. And not much memories of Ramaiah Hospital except for the chai and banana cake bahaha.



The best thing so far -- we are pregnant! Haha. Good things always come when you are least expecting. I stopped thinking about making babies because I wanted to focus on other things. I mean I did few things according to Google haha but I was like whatever I don't want to think about it suddenly I was very sick and before taking any bad medication (in case there is a baby) (I am taking the precaution since I started planning for babies) I did a urine test.


Which I did very you know, with nothing on my mind. Then I took a peep and there was a blur second line and I was like there must be a mistake but A was excited (he said he always knew I was sick because I am pregnant) so I repeated the test and the second line became clearer. And definitely scarier...... haha.


I was not yet convinced so we went for a scan and there he/she is..... a tiny tinyy sac inside my uterus (so its not an ectopic yay) but it was very tiny and we both were so surprised haha and the doctor asked awkwardly whether we are married or not :p


There you go. He/she has kind of keeping me busy haha and miraculously I forgot about few things that I wish to forget so it's good haha.


I just want to enjoy the moments of life (and note down everything in case I'd forget!). And 2016 would be much much scarier now that I am going to be a mother and a working mother hopefully.. so does it mean now I am officially an adult? Noo T_T


Haha so goodbye 2015, you've been good :)