to these four people, i'm sorry

you (1),
mintak maaf sebab tak dengar cakap kau. mintak maaf sebab degil bila kau cakap jangan buat aku buat jugak. but but i can't promise you i won't do it again heh i had fun the other day. tapi there's one thing i can promise though, well, i'm not what you're thinking. i am not playing around i don't know i just need some time fine i know you won't be reading this so there's no point i promise anything here. heh. again, i'm sorry.


you (2),
i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i've been a really bad bad best friend. fine, semalam aku buat-buat tak faham kenapa kau marah and i was so rude, i know. i guess you have the right to be mad at me i am not treating you good enough. but trust me, this time is for real. well hopefully. again, i'm sorry.


you (3),
mintak maaf aku selalu fikir buruk-buruk pasal kau. the thing is, i need some time to set my mind that you're not what you used to be. well i promise you i won't do it again (wow, i must be so serious i write this in blog). kau baik kau baik kau baik kau baik baik haha tengah mindset. again, i'm sorry.


you (4),
i guess you've read my message and yeah you did not reply. well that's it. we're done i guess. but i want you to know that no matter what happen you are still my favourite friend. thank you for treating me so nicely and i'm really hoping you'll find someone better later, a much much better person than i am. again, i'm sorry.


see how uncool i am? like everyone is mad at me. now i'm starting to feel mad at myself. heh.

dad, i'm still single

my parents keep asking me whether i have a boyfriend or not. when i tell them i don't have any (well that's the sad truth), they think i'm lying. the thing is i am not lying and heh no one is interested in me. okey maybe there are people who interested in me but ah well forget it.


last night my mom and my day were looking at my pictures during the homestay days (sebenarnya i paksa diorang tengok haha) and my dad was like, eh eh kenapa angah asyik bergambar dengan budak ni? he was pointing at A, one of my classmates, with a weird expression, as if he had caught me red-handed (heh).


penat i nak jelaskan dekat abah i dengan si A tu satu kumpulan masa tu and and A kan memang suka nak posing-posing pantang nampak kamera. abah, tolong la faham i have nothing to do with him for god sake he is my classmate grr.


malam tu, abah tanya i pasal exam macam mana susah tak semua-semua la. well i told him about F, another classmate of mine. i cakap la kat umi dengan abah i selalu belajar dengan F sebab nak tolong dia untuk exam. then abah terus serang i macam-macam soalan belajar dua orang je ke belajar kat mana kenapa nak tolong dia whatever la abah haha.


dad, those two guys are my classmates and please, i'm too young for those kinda stuff. and if (heh, IF) i have a boyfriend one day you'll be the first to know.


okey fine, dad won't read this.


p/s : tba-tiba semuaaa orang dah ada boyfriend. except me. sigh sigh haha

suprise suprise

second semester has officially ended! wow gila cepat masa empat bulan berlalu. and and i am left with another four months before everything ends. god, do make time turns slower i can't bear to lose my friends yet :(


okey fine didiey jangan nak emosional pulak.


so, final exam dah habis yeay! it had been two tough weeks okey i dah merepek pasal ni dalam entries lepas tak payah nak cakap benda sama. heh macam tak percaya i boleh tak update blog like almost seminggu. tiba-tiba rasa kekok tak tahu nak tulis ape haha.


p/s : life has been really weird nowadays. i have done few things i know i should have not been doing but hey it's fun. well i'm sorry for my selfishness.

extreme-ly bu-sy

i sangat sibuk kebelakangan ini. serius sangat sibuk. sekarang minggu ulangkaji (revision week) dan ini bermaksud minggu depan peperiksaan akhir semester. wow that means semester two is going to end. heh but i'm too busy to reminisce anything, yet. and i'm just too busy to update anything.


good luck didiey, four flat tau. (semua orang cepat aminkan!)

what's next?

heh where's your pride didiey?

tiga minggu diet

macam dah kurus sikit :)


heh riak.

10 random facts

10 random facts about my sister and i;


1. since i'm the middle child i'm close to both of my sisters tapi i dengan kakak lagi rapat since kakak is only two years older than me so basically we have a lot to share. kakak dengan adik tak rapat sangat kalau nak dibandingkan dengan i dan adik. my sister always think Ira is still a child walhal Ira is fourteen for god sake heh kakak selalu layan adik macam layan budak kecik -___-"


2. we went to the same school masa sekolah rendah, sekolah menengah rendah dan sekolah menengah atas but we're not practically schoolmates since both masa sekolah rendah dengan sekolah menengah atas she left when i was about to become a schoolmate heh. masa kat SHAMS dulu je kitorang pernah practically schoolmates (she was a prefect back then and i was the naughty girl haha), itu pun cuma setahun.


3. i used to envy my sister. back then selalu semua orang nak bandingkan kakak dengan i. fine, she is a good girl pandai ambil hati orang pandai jaga diri semua i je yang manja suka menangis suka nak nakal-nakal masa sekolah.


4. kakak selalu cakap taste i pelik. dia selalu tak approve lelaki yang i suka heh. paling dia tak approve bila i pernah suka this one chinese guy haha semua orang diam jangan nak komen bukan-bukan. tapi kakak pun selalu suka lelaki-lelaki pelik lepas tu suka paksa i dengar cerita merepek pasal those guys. bila turn i nak cerita dia boleh pulak buat-buat tidur -___-"


5. her english is so good i never understand what she blogs about. she likes to make me read those weird books and watch sappy love stories. books don't interest me and i prefer comedy or horror movies rather than thought provoking movies. and and my english is really bad sebab tu i selalu rojak bila tulis blog.


6. dia gelakkan i bila i cakap i tengah diet dan paksa i makan banyak-banyak sengaja rosakkan diet i grr. well she said she doesn't care if she's fat as long as she can eat anything she likes. i hate her for that.


7. semua orang selalu cakap muka kitorang sebijik heh fine i lagi gelap sebenarnya. and and orang selalu ingat i kakak hello tolong la faham.


8. i cried because i thought she loves her boyfriend more than she loves me. when she asked me why i cried i told her i'm not crying haha tak pandai menipu.


9. i cried when she left for new zealand.


10. she is the best sister i have ever had (walhal i cuma ada seorang kakak je) and i miss you already :(



heh did i just said that out loud?

i'll prove you guys wrong, insyaallah

i'm confuse. i mean, people keep telling me (more like reminding me) jangan selalu gaduh-gaduh dengan lelaki nanti kahwin. huh hell-uh.


okey here goes. there's this one guy who keeps cari masalah dengan i sejak dulu-dulu lagi sejak i mula-mula masuk kolej. serius i tak faham apa masalah lelaki ni kan selalu nak buat i marah nak tengok i mencarut-carut. eh eh tak, i tak pernah mencarut. paling teruk pun i akan cakap 'bodoh' itu pun dah selalu kena marah dengan roommate i -___-"


sekarang dah masuk semester dua dia dah macam kurang jahat sikit kalau nak dibandingkan dengan semester lepas still still kitorang ada je benda yang nak gaduh. and and semua asyik nak cakap kitorang akan kahwin la itu la ini la like come on, jangan la nak doakan yang bukan-bukan i have my own desired man (heh) so pelase please leave us alone jangan la nak keneng-kenengkan i dengan dia lagi.


so just now when everyone said we are going to get married someday i told them i'll prove them wrong i tak nak kahwin dengan dia. i tahu i dah terlebih berlagak sikit tadi heh jangan la kau kabulkan doa diorang semua amin.


p/s : flight kakak diawalkan satu hari. wow, suddenly my heart feels heavy.
p/s/s : gambar tak ada kaitan dengan entry heh.

merepek tengah-tengah malam

now that everything has settled (merujuk kepada program homestay dan kuiz gray's anatomy), i have to get things back on track. heh i dah banyak main-main sedar tak sedar lagi satu minggu lebih dah nak final exam. so first thing first, starting from tomorrow, i mean, today (sekarang dah rabu kot), i tak akan sibuk-sibuk nak tahu hal orang lagi. people do mistakes even i did mistakes now it's time for me to forgive and forget. well hey backstabber, i'm sorry i call you a backstabber.



and and i'm trying to be more serious in classes tak nak main-main sangat tolong la serius kalau nak four flat. btw sekarang kitorang tengah belajar chapter reproductive system heh i dah agak memang suasana kelas akan jadi macam ni. those boys sangat-sangat la nakal but thanks to them i know a lot of things pasal lelaki yang i tak pernah pernah ambik tahu selama ni. i kan tak ada adik-beradik lelaki kalau dulu-dulu nak bergaul dengan lelaki pun tak pandai -___-"


and! my sister is coming to my place tomorrow! i mean, wednesday which is today. sigh sigh these few days would be our last days together hopefully we would have so much fun. bye bye big sis, i would miss you.

backstabber

it hurts me to know that someone that i always like and trust turns out to be the worst backstabber. i think i hate you now. and it really hurts to hate you since you have always be a favourite friend. my roommate said i should not hate a friend for a mistake since a friend is a human who can't help but do mistakes sometimes. but i'm sorry i have to hate you. and in case you are reading this, i hate you.

the best of tanjung karang

semalam sampai rumah dalam pukul 9.30 macam tu. heh i had a tiring weekend but it was fun, a real fun i guess. jumaat satu CFS ponteng kelas sebab kitorang ada program anak angkat dekat tanjung karang. mula-mula i macam tak seronok nak pergi sebab masalahnya i tak kenal sangat budak-budak CFS kecuali pelajar MARA kalau kenal pun macam tak rapat setakat tahu nama je.


well luckily adik-beradik angkat i semua classmates i sendiri so we had fun bising-bising dengan keluarga angkat kitorang. ingatkan macam susah nak bergaul dengan keluarga angkat rupa-rupanya sampai je rumah terus dah boleh gelak-gelak lepas tu berebut nak jadi anak angkat kesayangan haha. ibu dengan abah sangat seronok. ibu tak habis-habis paksa i tambah nasik penat i nak explain i tengah diet sekarang.


remember when i told you guys i had enough with acting and all? well unfortunately since i used to be the best actress (boo perasan) kawan-kawan i mintak i berlakon lagi. this time around i jadi puteri gunung ledang (PGL) heh. tapi i bukan si PGL yang cantik lemah-lembut kaya budi bahasa semua tu tapi si PGL yang desperate nakkan sultan mahmud balik sebab hang tuah dah tak hensem -___-"


tapi macam terkilan sikit sebab kitorang tak menang apa-apa. ah well, at least budak-budak MARA A menang first place clap clap good job! apa-apa pun maraBrilliant sangat best i had so much fun during the perfomance :)


and the best part is masa on the way balik MSU bas kitorang rosak gila ah perjalanan yang sepatutnya dua jam je jadi empat jam. serius macam explorace masa on the way balik tu. masa bas tiba-tiba rosak tu kitorang semua turun sebab nak cari surau nak solat asar. penat lintas jalan tiba-tiba surau tu terkunci pulak. kitorang semangat pecah masuk surau tu konon niat nak berjihad heh last-last surau tu sangat sangat la tak bersih i tak sanggup nak solat kat situ so i join budak-budak yang lain tumpang solat dekat rumah kakak manis kat seberang jalan. haha suka-suka hati je tumpang solat rumah orang siap minum air borak-borak panjang dengan tuan rumah.


solat maghrib kitorang stop dekat carrefour solat kat surau dalam tu. tahu-tahu je la kan kalau maghrib mesti dah gelap semua nak sampai surau macam-macam halangan nak kena lalui. nak lompat longkang besar la nak redah semak semua sangat adventure haha.


tiba-tiba budak lelaki yang selalu sengal-sengal jadi macam sangat protective. masa nak lompat longkang besar tu diorang la yang tengokkan kitorang lepas tu tunggu semua dah siap baru la diorang naik bas. heh terharu pulak i dengan diorang. tapi tak boleh puji lebih-lebih haha.


i had so much fun and here are the pictures (in random order);

farah aimunie, dalam gambar
pun kau nak cakap banyaaak heh? :P

adik-beradik sengal

the best picture :)

community service

i memang rajin heh

masa ni i macam kurus :P

:)

hey i blog about you!

"four things i really appreciate; great food, great books, great shows and great conversations. and thank you for the last one"


heh Sha, i'm touched.

current obsession

kawan-kawan i suka cakap i gemuk. okey fine umi dengan abah pun selalu cakap i gemuk. abah selalu marah bila i nak makan itu nak makan ini dia cakap perempuan kena jaga badan heh. sepanjang tujuh belas tahun eh eh dah lapan belas kot, i tak pernah diet. kalau diet pun setakat sehari dua lepas tu terus reward diri sendiri dengan aiskrim. senang cakap i memang tak nak diet. i tak kisah sey apa orang nak cakap i gemuk ke hape kan as long as i am happy.


tapi itu dulu la. masuk hari ni dah lima belas hari i diet. diet di sini bermaksud i ganti makan nasik dengan benda murah dan tak sedap macam roti atau kalau i rajin i buat milo. bila i start mengada-ngada tak nak makan itu tak nak makan ini tiba-tiba semua orang protest cakap tak payah diet sebab i tak gemuk. okey sekarang i dah confuse i gemuk ke tak sebenarnya?


i tahu cara i diet ni tak betul heh sayur pun tak makan tapi i dah macam teruja nak teruskan diet sampai.......huh sampai bila agaknya? selalu kalau orang diet bila diorang start makan balik? i'm clueless. tapi mengada-ngada nak diet jugak.


agaknya nanti bila kewangan i dah stabil balik i akan berhenti diet. btw my bestfriend is so mad at me when i told her i have stopped eating she keeps asking me to eat healthy, not stop eating. well sha, i'll consider your suggestion. you know how stubborn i can be.

see, i'm fat.