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read something fascinating; "But paradise is locked and bolted...we must make a journey around the world to see if a back door has perhaps been left open" - Heinrich von Kleist.

naaaah, i have my own dream. i want to enter Jannah through the front door, with the welcoming Malaikat...along with my family and friends :) tak nak la masuk back door. back door would me i'm a second intake to Jannah. nauzubillah.

p/s : i'm too happy here, Alhamdulillah. thanks Allah for your gift - a whole week Umi and Abah. and a long day with Ira this Friday. yeay!

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i've been waiting for tomorrow for two years, with a bigg question mark. now i have the answer, but things have changed and it makes me so sad hukhukhuk T____T *over*

i've made the choice to be "just best friends" until the right time comes. why worry, as long as we believe in "kalau dah jodoh tak ke mana" tak ada hubungan pun tak apa. kita bercinta dalam hati je k? *macam geliiii*

we've been "just best friends" for more than a month now. rasa awkward sikit but it's okay, kot? i'm okay and he's okay eh, okay ke? are you? hmm sebenarnya banyak nak kongsi tapiiii some things are better left unsaid, kot. doakan yang terbaik je la :)

p/s : sorry. sorry for the millionth time.

p/s/s : you're the best best friend i have ever had :')

*nangis*

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cik hati, tolong jadi budak baik boleh? dok diam-diam je. nanti kita cakap heart-to-heart k. sekarang i busy, sabar ye? :")

Allah, dugaan jenis lain pulak datang. kena kuattt. Astaghfirullah :(

p/s : ekzenggg seninggg! doakan!

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last usrah was a little different since Kak Farah wasn't there and we got a "kakak usrah angkat", Kak Fin. Kak Fin is adorable and she's married! *heh selalu excited dengan senior yang da kahwin* but i miss Kak Farah, let's pray for her recovery :(

oh, nak share satu cerita.

yesterday was a tiringg day, lately selalu penat sebab banyak benda nak kena buat. eh, tapi sekarang cuti? oh ya lupa cakap kitorang sekarang study week, Isnin depan akan start exam. cuak, kot? tapi sebab fikir Allah kan adaaa rasa cuak hilang sikit hewhewhew. i was tired, by 9 dah tidur and set alarm pukul 12. poyo gila, tak mungkin la akan bangun pukul 12 kan *last-last bangun pukul 2 pagi boo* -,- bangun je tidur ada orang cakap "eh tahu tak ada rumah terbakar..." over.

bukan terbakar, tapi ada kek terbakar. but the unfortunate thing is, all of the house members were asleep and Allah je tahu for how long they sleep with those bad gases *carbon monoxide, sulfur oxide yada yadaaa*. tapi Allah baik, Dia gerakkan hati salah seorang untuk bangun dan kejukan yang lain. nasib baik semua sempat bangun dan keluar rumah cepat-cepat, kalau tak..?

nak dijadikan cerita kitorang tengah belajar module respiratory tract, tahu apa carbon monoxide boleh buat? CO is a bad bad gas, diorang akan fight oxygen untuk bind dengan red blood cells (RBC) and they have 1000 times affinity toward RBC! sekarang cuba fikir apa consequence kalau RBC tak boleh bind dengan oxygen? ya, badan tak dapat oxygen. might lead to death. scary T__T

what happened last night make us thinking, macam mana kalau..? payah kan nak sebut perkataan m***. padahal m*** tu pasti. takut.. takut nak kena berhadapan dengan malaikat maut, takut nak jawab soalan-soalan dalam kubur kelak, takut kalau kubur gelap dan ada binatang-binatang geli *nauzubillah* dan yang paling takut, apa nak jawab dengan Allah nanti kalau Allah tanya "apa amalan kamu yang kamu rasa kamu layak masuk syurga?" ternganga nak jawab.

"Tetapi hanya Allah lah pelindungmu,dan Dia penolong yg terbaik " (3:150)

Alhamdulillah semua selamat, sekarang ada misi nak dilaksanakan minggu depan :) fightingg!

HURRY

got two pending #WS and one pending wedding story but i'm either too busy or too lazy. mid semester exam's a week away, have to work very hard.. will update later, HAVE TO sebenarnya sebab i've promised to share some things that i've learnt in usrah rite?

bai!