Dilemma

I want an easy life. Easy life as per imagination - I would be busy reading books, eat whatever I want, laugh or cry whenever I want to, able to say no to anyone if I don't want (to do) anything, make faces when I don't like anyone, tell straight to their faces if I hate them, ignore rubbish talks, further ignoring brags, hm what else?

In my imagination, I am a selfish human being. And I always hate a selfish friend. So I definitely don't want to be one. 

Maka, I have to do what I have to do. Manage my anger, suck up my annoyance, be nice to everyone even if I don't feel like it, don't make faces, be patient, be patient and be patient. For those who know me well they know how impatient I am (especially if I'm waiting). Phew, so much I have to give up in order to become a pleasant friend.

And I will... try my best. I'm a year older I have to be a year wiser.

I'm sorry if sometimes my imagination rules me.

Assalamualaikum.

Aidiladha

Assalamualaikum.



This is my fourth Aidiladha in Bangalore. This year Aidiladha was a bit hambar. agaknya sebab seniors dah nak balik (some already left) and there's no single activity done! Cuma sembahyang raya takbir sesikit ada jamuan makan nasi beriyani... and that's all. It's boring I tell you. Let's just hope next (and last, Insyaallah) Aidiladha would be better, as meriah as we once celebrated when I was in first or second year.



Nasib baik some people are so thoughtful they cook a lot and my tummy sure is happy. This year I didn't cook anything haha maybe next year Insyaallah. The best dish I had this Aidiladha is Hana's lodeh. I siap mintak tapau haha. But it would be better with tempe tsk faham la keadaan orang merantau. Ini dah cukup baik hihi. Mira made kuah kacang, which is spicy (for me) so I kinda miss the usual, sweet kuah kacang in Terengganu but changes are good haha.



Sembahyang raya is syahdu as always.. In those less than hour time it makes me think about a lot of things. They talk a lot about "korban". How much have I sacrificed throughout the year for Him? And yet, He still gives me most of the things that I've wanted.



It's been a year. See how much I have grown haha. I don't even cry when I hugged Kak Farah goodbye ;)

The first and last

Assalamualaikum.



I'm back in India. Datang dengan semangat dan cita-cita menggunung tehee ok sebenarnya nak belajar OBG tak nak dapat B- dah haha kena balik Malaysia dengan A kali ni. Setakat ni tak homesick lagi kot haha selalunya I start homesick bila I stress. Sebab Isnin ni baru start kelas so minggu depan la kot baru start homesick haha.



Hm tahun empat. Lagi dua tahun. Tapi rasa kosong serius kalau ada orang pengsan depan mata sekarang still tak tahu nak buat apa-apa (ok hari tu jumpa mak cik pengsan kat mall tapi tak tau nak buat apa terus jalan pelan-pelan buat-buat tak nampak tehee). Oh sekarang seniors tengah rancak jual barang-barang kat IMS yardsale sekejap je semua barang dah habis. I tak rasa nak beli apa-apa pun haha (ok kecuali vacuum dengan buku-buku best tak tahu la bila nak baca kan) tapi seronok tengok barang-barang mana la tahu ada yang murah/free boleh terus cop.



Apa ni random sangat haha.



Toby is fat and happy. Um. Ok ni serius tak ada apa nak cakap haha bye.