Goodbye

I hate goodbyes. But I'm glad I handle goodbyes better now. No, I'm not going to list all the memories I had with you we both know what we've been through I just hope things would be just fine for you because I care about you. You've been a really good friend, I thank you. 

How unexpected life is?

"Kita semua ada cita-cita sama kita lalui jalan yang sama tapi Allah yang pegang masa depan kita sekejap je Allah boleh ubah jalan hidup kita sepenuhnya".

Tabahkan hati, take care.

:')

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Today I spent 3 hours lebih kurang in the OT. We watched three upper GI endoscopy and one colonoscopy. Upper GI endoscopy is a barbaric procedure, I tell you. In India they don't give any anesthesia  for the patients so they simply push the camera (attached to a tube) inside the patient's mouth while holding the patient's hand to avoid any disturbance, up to second part of duodenum. Patient would be drooling and wanting to vomit. Just imagine T_T


The procedure selalunya lasts about 5-10 minutes but if the patient is not cooperative they will end it faster. Tapi kena la cooperative kan, no matter how teruk it is, better make it prefect for the first time so you don't have to repeat the same thing in future.


Afterward we watched appendectomy, Dr Prakash Babu is so kacak haha he did it in less than 20 minutes (by laparoscopy). It's the second appendectomy we see, and he keeps saying "Laparoscopy is the best method for appendectomy it won't leave much scar" to ME. Tsk. I said I had perforation during an open appendectomy last 3-4 years and my scar is ugly. K.


Then we had a patient with pilonidal sinus. Its a sinus (a blind tract) filled with pus at the natal cleft. Haha google it for better explanation. Hah teringat tadi I tried to explain to a patient what is goitre. Sangat awkward bila dia buat muka masa I cakap pasal hypo- and hyperthyroidism.


Anyway Dr Prakash did a wide excision in other word he removed all the infected flesh together with sinuses and pus and leave a huge hole in the butt. I had to ask "Sir are you going to leave it open like that?!" haha yes, it has to be left open to prevent any infection. Like Dr Prakash said "Infection is our biggest worry".


Later we watched hemithyroidectomy, which is the highlight of the day.


I continue writing this post two days later, and I forgot what I wanted to write. Er well.

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I told a friend, I don't like Surgery as much as I like Medicine (I miss the rush of ward round in Medicine posting) but everyday I'm excited to go to hospital because I like the surgeons. Not because Dr Prakash is kacak je la, I like the other surgeons too, they all so charismatic and know Anatomy very wellll. I thought Anatomy is over once you finish the first year of MBBS haha. I shall marry a surgeon one day haha EH TETIBA.


Talking about marriage, a friend of mine got married yesterday. Every time I think of marriage I would think of my family. Let's say I get married at 22 (contoh), that means I just spend 22 years with my family?! Tolak all those years in boarding school, the foundation year, 2-3 years abroad.. Seems like we spend more time with our partner than our own parents. Tsk.


Eh, I'm not against early marriage, I'm just saying you know. But I'm all against getting married abroad without the presence of parents and families. Kalau dulu-dulu boleh la terima, balik Malaysia pun sekali dua je. But now, better go home and get married all you want haha. Marriage is not between two people its the whole family. Eh I'm not even married why I'm giving lecture about marriage haha kbye.


I'm at this age where everyone is talking about getting married, you know. It's hard. Haha.


Now this; "Dan orang-orang yang beriman serta mengerjakan kebajikan, Kami tidak akan membebani seseorang melainkan menurut kesanggupannya, Mereka itulah penghuni syurga; mereka kekal di dalamnya" (7:42). This is for you, if you find life is hard. I do. But I'll find ways to be happy everyday and be grateful for everthing I have been given so far. Alhamdulillah :')


Assalamualaikum.

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Assalamualaikum.


I have cold and sore throat for the last few days. My voice is all croaky and I'm forbidden to eat a lot of things but as a typical doctor (to be) I don't listen to any of the doctor's advises, hence the worsened irritation at the back of my throat. Ehem. I forgot to take the antibiotics (amoxicillin and potassium clavulanate) 3-4 times, but I continue the regiment because those are expensive ones. Tak nak membazir. Hopefully there won't be any bacterial resistance in my guts..


I don't think I like Surgery much. It's so theoretical, I have to remember all those things I used to hafal in Anatomy segala arteries, nerves and whatnot. I miss playing doctors in Medicine posting, but OT is fun, no doubt about it. We got thyroidectomy this Thursday! Now I'm trying to mug up all the terms related to thyroid. Malasnya.. Lately I'm so malas but every time I'm so malas I would think of the faces of adik-adik who keep asking me how to belajar and all. Malu sikit bila bagi semangat kat orang lain tapi diri sendiri terkapai-kapai (over). Now I'm multitasking, I'm writing while my eyes are fixed to the anatomy of thyroid gland haha (tipu).


Dr Prakash Babu sangat kacak haha random. He's young and sweet, today he told us to study well and be the "front bench" students. He said he used to be the nakal students who did last minute study and hardly read books. I said "Eh, but you're a good surgeon now". He said "Oh thank you! I'm yet to be one, but thank you for the compliment". Haha it's totally different with Dr RKT in Medicine posting, he's very charismatic and he knows he knows everything and tell everyone that he knows everything HAHAA. But its acceptable la, because everyone knows he's good.


Since Sindhi Hospital is a small hospital, I get the chance to relax a bit in this posting. Except kalau ada OT we would stand hours and crack our heads trying to answer Dr PB's questions. See, I have to be rajin now. Why am I so malas?! Kadang-kadang I'm too malas to think I just google the answer but he knows! He would say "Where's your phone?" maka all I could do is sengih -.-'''


I miss my family, serius nak balik tapi Abah cakap "Kena fokus". K Abah. Lagi sentap bila kawan bagitahu "Faham tak perasaan seronok niiii?", k dah beli tiket. Kata nak jadi independent, masa ni la nak cuba. Gulp. Cuba.



Bye assalamualaikum. Semoga esok lebih baik daripada hari ni :)