what would i do when i'm sad?

1. once upon a time i would listen to sad, sappy songs and cry along but now i have no time to do such silly things *dah besar kot HAHA* i simply put on my earphones and turn up the volume until i would be lost in the lyrics and forget everything. it usually work but some people can't understand once i put on my earphones that means i don't want to talk to anyone tolong la fahaaam -.-


2. before i started Herbalife *oh yeaah i haven't told you people about this yet! nanti kita cerita okay :)* i would eat a lot of junk food or err, any food will do HAHA. tapi sekarang mana boleh, gila kena control makan heh dah 2 minggu tak kurus kurus pun. sekarang kalau sedih kena minum air banyak-banyak ganti makanan. lagipun i am easily dehydrated, i have to drink 2 bottles of water a day, with extra one bottle if i'm sad. like now.


3. i will go merempat mana-mana rumah so that i can talk to somebody about anything at all. i avoid calling Mom when i'm sad i don't want her to worry lagipun India bukan dekat kena berdikari sekarang :) wow, i sound really matured. HAHA.


4. i'll cry. it doesn't solve anything but at least i would feel better.


5. cari ayat-ayat yang boleh tenangkan hati dalam Al-Quran. it always work tapiii segan sikit sebab bila sedih baru cari Al-Quran..


6. it is good to share your problems with your friends but faham tak, diorang mungkin akan cakap "i faham perasaan you", it won't be the same, kau tak alami macam mana nak faham. in the end, i would keep things to myself and eventually i will forget. senang. orang lain pun banyak cerita sedih, tak nak la bebankan sesiapa.


bye.

belanja minum kopi :)

so this is how pasar in India looks like -.-

ingat tak i pernah cerita i jadi speaker ada satu seminar pasal pancreas? haa, the seminar was quite a disaster i was soo nervous since i was the first speaker and all the lecturers are there. urgh. tensi gila bila semua orang pandang i and i tak boleh cakap Melayu. faham tak perasaan tu? okay tak faham tak apa -.- so tadi Madam Sayee tiba-tiba panggil kitorang 3 orang yang jadi speakers untuk Anatomy ajak minum kopi. i excited gila kot i terus terbayang minum coffee latte dekat Coffee A Day (macam Secret Recipe tapi cikai sikit) semangat i cakap kat semua orang madam nak belanja minum. oh, rupa-rupanya minum kopi kat kedai kopi tempe (tempe stands for locals - TEMP(E)atan) dah la minum berdiri macam tempe-tempe kat situ. hancur impian nak minum latte. lepas tu semua orang gelakkan bila tahu T.T


tapii seronok sebab first time minum kopi macam tempe (sebab kena berdiri keliling meja bulat) and seronok bila lecturers macam sangat hargai usaha kitorang present pasal Anatomy of Pancreas yang kitorang akan belajar semester depan :") Madam cakap i "she knows a lot and she is so curious she wants to know everything" HAHA can i take that as compliment Madam?


doakan test Jumaat ni byee :)


p/s : tadi pergi pasar sebab tu upload gambar pasar haha tiba-tiba kan x)

365 days

it is true that i am hopeless romantic at heart but i usually fail to express my love towards ehem, Alif. i rarely tell him how i feel or do anything spontaneous to make him happy. get what i mean? the most romantic thing so far i have done to him is err the other day he was sick so i went to his house to give him some Panadols. and that's it -.- well he always claims that he knows nothing about being sweet least of all the romantic type but he expresses his feelings better.


oh yeah this entry will be a geli one so please don't read this further if you're not Alif. thanks. and i'll write A for short :)


before we started dating A and i are enemies. seriously. most of my old entries are about how much i hated him and how desperately i pleaded everyone to stop keneng-keneng us because i didn't want him and never would. remember this? macam mana tiba-tiba boleh suka, don't ask me because i don't have the answer. one day i woke up and saw the different side of him and i wanted to become his friend. A's fun, he's spontaneous and it's a wonder how he can tahan my childish attitudes HAHA.


back in Mais A and i sangat kesian. we were too penniless to date we usually hanging out in front of 7E makan Slurpee or ice creams and gaduh about who gonna pay for the next meal x)


you know, you're more than just a lover *muntaaah* you're my best friend. siapa lagi yang sanggup dengar i menangis sebab geram dengan housemates HAHA atau tak puas hati dengan markah exams. i told you i'm no good at expressing my feelings but i really appreciate what you have done to me. oh yeah, next time we go picnic i want nasi lemak sambal sotong like you promised before. and stop denying you're the romantic type because you're sweeter than a cotton candy. more like aspartame :)


Happy first anniversary, bro.


oh lupa nak cakap please play this while you're reading!

allergy

i have a super bad allergy. my arms and forearms become reddish and itchy. worst of all, they become pedih after i take a bath. Dr Manoha said it may be the dust and pollutants *India is super dusty URGH* because once i go back to Malaysia the itchiness will be cleared. hmm. Mom doesn't allow me to go out kecuali pergi balik kolej because of the dust. but of course i'm the degil one sometimes i disobey her x)


i never had such an allergy before i hate it grr especially when people back off when they look at my now-ugly forearms. oh, i hate it more when they would say "eii what's with your hands..". this is no joke people, it hurts me. really. don't do it when you got such patients five years from now. bye.

*grin*

i've been baaad. i skip a college event and i feel good about it. err i mean, i feel bad because i don't join them but i feel good because i finally have a free and relaxing weekend. FINALLY! i don't know what keeps me sooo busy, exam lambat lagi kot? nak cakap study heh tak ada la study sangat pun. habis tu kenapa i busy? pelik -.-


anywaaaay, sangat banyak benda berlaku sekarang tapi tak sempat nak update semua benda sebab okay BUSY *zZZzz tak habis-habis dengan busy* and sebab Baby sakit :( macam ni cerita dia, satu hari dalam minggu lepas rumah kitorang ada short circuit. scary sebab lampu rumah terbakar as in, terbakar yang ada api. faham? haa dengan charger Baby sekali terbakar. dah la Baby memang dah tak boleh pakai bateri sebab err bateri dah "overcharged" *malas nak bukak bateri masa plug in padan muka boo*. makanya setiap kali nak online kena curi charger Mia nasib baik lappy i sama dengan Mia :)


sekarang kaan, masa practical Physiology kitorang dah tak main cocok-cocok tangan tengok darah bawah microscope dah. kitorang main bukak-bukak baju sambil palpate muehehehe x) batch A ada dua orang je lelaki taw so 2 orang ni la yang jadi mangsa kena bukak baju untuk dijadikan bahan eksperimen. kesian sikit bila tengok diorang segan-segan masa i check respiration rate, chest movement, enlargement of nodes etc etc tapi nak buat macam mana dah nama pun belajar kan? tapi err minggu depan nak pakai gloves la masa palpate, kang tak pasal ada perasaan bukan-bukan -.-' since kena bukak baju every week budak-budak lelaki asyik risau terlebih makan sebab segan nanti kitorang nampak perut HAHA sengetnya. tak ada orang kisah kot tolong la faham. walhal sebelum ni suka hati je diorang upload gambar tak pakai baju kat facebook siap caption merepek-repek. tak faham ah budak-budak zaman sekarang.


Khamis ni ada seminar apa entah tapi i'm selected as one of the speakers. like OHMYGOD macam mana niiii takut sikit tak excited langsung and malas gila nak prepare. dah la kena cakap pasal gross anatomy of pancreas malas kot. serius. since i left school i have no slightest intention of ever being selected for anything. i nak datang kelas belajar pandai-pandai dapat hihgest mark and that is enough for me (walaupun kadang-kadang malas nak pergi kelas). hmm tapi dah amanah kena la buat yang terbaik kan? doakan kita tak tersasul cakap melayu kat atas stage nanti -.-


okay bye malas nak type makin lama type makin merepek jadinya.

naah, you'll be too busy to get homesick.

kat Mais dulu, i ada 7 housemates - Hanis Raiyan Mira Syaer Sally Aliah Bella tapi 3 orang je yang datang India, 2 budak farmasi pergi Perth 3 lagi budak pandai pergi Tasmania :) sedih sikit bila budak-budak rumah Mia nak buat "reunion rumah" sebab diorang lapan orang semua kat India. heh. well, absence does make heart grow fonder, i miss you guys :") you guys have fun in Aussie, jangan homesick sebab Aussie 8 jam daripada Malaysia kitorang 3 jam je hehe. take care babes!

last day in Msu :)

ini masa birthday Syaer, eh Mira tak ada kan?
padan muka sebab kena ambil gambar HAHA

Syaer-Mira-Didiey-Sally-Raiyan-Hanis-Bella-Aliah
sayangs :)

p/s : well goodbye Tasmania heh i have made my the best choice i guess.

Courage

i dislike changes, dislike as in susah nak terima perubahan tapi sikit-sikit boleh terima. but i prefer not to change, if you know what i mean. tapi sampai bila nak jadi orang bodoh sombong yang tahu itu salah tapi buat jugak? dah la sombong dengan Allah, siapa la kita :(


so i decided to make a change. a change that for me is really really hard to accomplish. and it becomes harder when everyone keeps telling me this is wrong or that is not the best way or jaga hati orang itu orang ini i was like hello kau cakap senang la cuba kau sendiri yang buat? -.-


i need some support but i don't know how to tell my friends that. i guess everyone is busy with their problems too. maybe i just have to be strong and percaya Allah selalu ada no matter how hard things seem to be He is always there for me. kan? :(


and i'm sorry i am unfair to you.