Closure

"Hey, I see you were not listed for Distinction. It's okay you'll get one next time. But you were really good the other day."


:)

Goodbye Goodbye

I'll be leaving India in two weeks time. Everyone keeps saying they never planned to come to India but ended up here but they are thankful anyway etc etc but me, I wanted to come to India. I remember giving an official letter to the administration saying that I want to come to India tho I can go to somewhere fancier.  Haha I was that determined.

I don't have much to complain about India. Of course I despise the traffic, the annoying auto drivers, the fact that my house is just next to a railway station, the fact that the language is too complicated and why nobody understands when I speak a proper English, and how they complain about "your English is not too good" BUT YOU MADE ME SPEAK LIKE THAT haha and why would you let cows, chickens, cats and dogs roaming the streets just like that? 

Other than that, I kind of like India.

Anyway.. the results were announced and I did pass my MBBS. I mean, Alhamdulillah I've made it but being me, I want something more than just a "pass". I know I did good and it was a little frustrating but I keep in my mind that after five years I would be fine with the fact that I failed my own aim/target/goal or whatever so haha I feel better now. And I fought with a good fight so it's worth it, even it's just a "pass" haha. 

I was going through the old notebooks and I know I have done a good job and I am doing this because I like it, not just for the sake of a scroll. So I'm good here haha.

But no I won't be posting any "Hey guys I've made it!" status I don't deserve it (yet).

Anyway!

Dr Dominic is like the kindest examiner I'm so glad I had a Medicine case for long case and I was kinda hoping for a CNS case but He knew better so He gave me something a way easier haha. But I did a really bad job in Pediatrics short case. It's even more frustrating because I like Pediatrics the most. It's like I was betraying an old friend or something lol. Other than that I was fine. And theory papers -- they were the easiest haha! Seriously I was expecting something more complicated and cruel and you know, but okay fine, bronchopneumonia is fine.... haha!

Come to think of it.. why did I choose MBBS in the first place? Why did I not think of being something not involving life and death like you know, a teacher, or accountant or, I don't know. I was only 16 then but I was so convinced I wanted to be a doctor I wanted to be able to comfort people in need etc etc haha so here I am.. let's just hope I would have at least 6 months before I have to start working.....

My husband is the kindest he's busy cooking in the kitchen while I'm here writing in front of the laptop having fun hahaha I love baby, I'll cook tomorrow :p

Life is good, life is pretty good. I'm going to miss my five years in India. I envy Kak Fien, being able to come back to India and meet the teachers and showing them how successful she bcomes.. :)

I want to write a lot more I've been drafting everything in my head but it's too emotional I need some time to sort all the memories haha. Two week left.

Last Day Tomorrow

Have I told you that my husband is every opposite of me? I am anxious most of the time buy he is calm um not calm but chill? I think. For the past one month (3 weeks of study leave and 1 week of theory exam) he is so .. chill? Haha.


I want to know everything I read all the books and I remember most of the sentences what are the pages what are the pictures.. I ticked all the chapters I am supposed to read and sonetimes I write notes. But him! He started "feeling nervous" by the end of second week of study leave. And he started to "really read" when it is 4-5 days left before exam started. Like omg if I were him I would freak out haha.


The thing is he said the theory exam was easy and (quoted( "I think I would pass. Nah, I just want to pass" haha I hate him for being so chill. I am nervous all the time and I keep on checking "how much I need to score to gey an A!" -_-


Today is the last day for him and tomorrow would be my turn.. hopefully.. everything woukd be all right, Insyaallah *sambung nervous*