4 in the morning

i sendiri tak faham kenapa i susahkan diri i berjaga sampai lewat malam. padahal hari ni i penat berkayak dekat tasik shah alam gambar kalau i rajin i upload. and hari ni jugak i penat menunggu kelas nak start. awal pagi i bangun kononnya ada kelas pukul lapan turns out lecturer pulak ada kecemasan. kan dah membazir waktu tidur i hish.


tadi i tengok Forrest Gump. a movie back in 1994 heh kenapa i asyik tengok movie berzaman dulu? but it such a lovely movie. it was about a boy yang sangat naif he'd do anything that his mama and his special friend asked him to do blablabla excuse me i sangat penat nak cerita panjang-panjang. still, i tak rasa i akan tengok cerita ni buat kali kedua.

"Dear God, make me a bird. So I could fly far. Far far away from here".

i wish.

my kind of boy

Now, here's what you're supposed to do, and please do not spoil the fun. Copy and paste this into your notes, delete my answers, type in your answers and tag 20 of your friends here in Facebook to answer this. Then see what happens.


If you a guy- post this as my kind of girl
If your a girl- post this as my kind of boy



1. Do you need him/her to be good looking?
yeahh. but not necessarily.

2. Smart?
at least smarter than me.

3. Preferred age?
at least a year older than me.

4. Preferred height?
taller than me!
then we can dance all night longg heh.

5. How about sense of humour?
yeah yeahh. but no rude jokes.
i hate rude jokes.

6. How about piercing?
helo excuse me i sendiri pun tak pierce.

7. Accepts you for who you are?
yeah of course.
i kan sangat banyak kelemahan tsk tsk.

8. Pink hair?
-___-"

9. Mushy or not?
nahh. tak boleh bayang nanti tengok
titanic sama-sama si dia yang
menangis dulu.

10. Thin or fat?
senang cakap, physically fit. hoho.

11. Black, brown or white (skin colour)?
white. haha.

12. Long hair or short hair?
serabai but cute in his own way :P

13. Plastic or metal?
huh?

14. Smells good?
jangan lagi wangi daripada i sudeyy.

15. Smoker?
STRICTLY NO.

16. Drinker?
STRICTLY NO.

17. Girl/ boy-next-door type?
i nak yang nakal-nakal sikit.

18. Muscular?
ahah (nada gatal)

19. Plays piano?
laaame.

20. Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar?
boleh la.

21. Sings very good?
tak penting kot.

22. Plays violin?
super laaame.

23. Vain?
nahh.

24. With glasses?
not really.

25. With braces?
omg no.

26. Rebel or good boy/girl?
good boy tapi perasan rebel.

27. Shy type?
yeah!

28. Active or passive?
active! like i am :P

29. Tight or bomb?
bomb as in hot?
i rase i je yang fikir dia hot.

30. Singer or dancer?
tak pentingg kot.

31. Stunner?
depends.

32. Hip hop?
entahh. but jiwangg type is a strict no.

33. Earrings?
-___-"

34. Mr/Ms count my ex till you drop?
-

35. Dimples?
tanak. dimples tu cacat kot.
(tak puas hati sebab diri sendiri tak ada dimples. haha)

36. Bookworm?
TAK NAK.
i nak movie addict.

37. Mr/Ms love letter?
macam geli.

38. Playful?
yeahh so comel.

39. Flirt?
yeahh but not flirty in a rude way.

40. Poem writer?
macam geli.

41. Serious?
nahh.

42. Campus crush?
haha you bet.

43. Religious?
yeahh. sangat terharu hari tu
i curi-curi dengar dia imamkan solat zohor. heh.

44. Painter?
not really.

45. Someone who likes to tease people?
...but not in a rude way.

46. Computer games geek? Or internet freak?
nahh.

47. Speaks 20 languages?
haha tak payah. tahu english sudeyy.

48. Loyal or faithful?
loyal and faithful :)

49. Good kisser?
ohohoho of course.

50. Loves children?
yeahh.


ladies and gentlemen,
i have a new crush.
:P

the first day of college

sepatutnya hari ni ada kelas chemistry dan physics tapi kelas chemistry dibatalkan (msu pada kebiasaannya heh) and that left us like five freaking hours merayau-rayau tanpa tujuan sebelum kelas physics start. kesian.


kelas pertama macam biasa kenal-kenal dengan lecturer and lantik class rep. then kenal sikit-sikit dengan kitorang nama apa asal mana bla bla. this is the part yang i paling suka i pun tak tahu kenapa. like everything is back to basic. macam masa mula-mula kenal dulu ecehh. but this time around semua orang dah bising-bising nak cakap kat lecturer nicknames semua orang. serius i cakap kalau i la yang jadi lecturer MARA B i akan kena heart attack tau. semua orang ada soalan nak tanya and semua orang tak sabar nak luahkan pendapat masing-masing. padahal baru kelas pertama.


balik je rumah semua orang stress sebab nak recall balik apa yang kitorang belajar masa spm dulu. i je yang rileks bajet genius siap boleh update blog. tapi seriously i sangat tak ada mood nak belajar so tak boleh salahkan i. heh. tengok, baru sehari buat azam sem baru dah lupa -____-"


sebenarnya ada something yang keep bugging me sampaikan i tak boleh nak fokus (alasan). ahh forget it. tak penting okey. didiey, cepat pergi siapkan assignment pertama yeahh. toodles.

sunway babyy

biasanya hari-hari pertama start kolej kitorang satu rumah selalu tak ada kerja nak buat sampaikan sanggup lepak satu bilik lapan orang merepek merapu je kerja. so sebab serius bosan lepak kat rumah je kitorang decided nak lepak kat sunway pulak. tahniah kepada i yang sangat saving masa sem 1 sekarang boleh shopping puas-puas yeahh.


here are the pictures ;

ini housemates kesayangan i. cewahh.

eei tak senonoh.
mira : eh asal syaer nampak
macam zombie dalam gambar ni?

haha sabar syaer sabar.

izzati aliah yang garang

tak ada kerja ambik gambar kat tangga berkulat
-___-"

seronok tarik rambut mira

gila berbeza i dengan roommate i haha

kenapa i je yang tak penat?

....berlakon penat la. heh.

esok start kelas yeahh. didiey, jangan main-main lagi dalam kelas. jangan menyampuk bila lecturers mengajar. jangan merepek dalam kelas. jangan cari gadoh dengan geng annoying. (pesanan untuk diri sendiri)

frustrated

when people put high expectations on you automatically you trust yourself to do well. suddenly you don't get what you want all you want to do is cry your heart out and refuse to eat. and annoy those people who is no better than you.


people, i tak dapat four flat. i dapat 3.94. and that really frustrates me.


i'm sorry if i annoy you guys but i'm not prepared for this. i'm sorry i cried. but i've told you i expected the best result.

selalu ada masalah nak cari tajuk

there some things (well, a lot of things sebenarnya) yang i tak boleh cakap di sini. contohnya macam apa yang i sebenarnya rasa bila some people selalu tuduh i bukan-bukan sebab i tak nak ikut apa yang diorang cakap. like hello tolong bagi i ruang untuk fikir apa yang i patut buat jangan desak i boleh tak?


huh, did i just said it out loud?

simply random

to be honest i hate changes. and suprises. yeah i sound so closed-minded and lame and boring tapi itu la hakikatnya; i prefer things to remain as they were. but please don't get me wrong i boleh adapt in new situations new surroundings and new friends but i can't help but looking back and cherishing the old memories and regretting things i have never done.


wow i sound so matured. heh.


like a friend of mine; dia dah jadi lainnn sekarang sejak-sejak dia ada bf. yeah yeah siapa la i nak dibandingkan dengan bf dia tu.


bercakap pasal bf ni; semalam i borak-borak dengan kawan i. she's a good friend of mine. dia selalu ada untuk i selalu bagi i nasihat yang bagus-bagus tapi kadang-kadang annoying haha. but i love you all the same don't worry dear. so we talk and we talk and tiba-tiba out of nowhere dia cakap kat i; "didiey, kau suka tanya banyak soalan kan. mesti kau susah nak dapat bf".


omg i was like APA KAITAN TANYA BANYAK SOALAN DENGAN SUSAH NAK DAPAT BF? -___-"


lately kan i rasa sangat hodoh bila pakai specs. mata i nampak lagi sepet and and hidung i nampak lagi besar omg kenapa la dari dulu i tak jaga mata tak makan carrot banyak-banyak. nanti bila biasiswa masuk i nak pakai contact lens pulak. tu pun kalau mak i benarkan.

oh hello anatomy and physiology

i have another week at home before i'll start my new subject ; anatomy and physiology. hoh i cant wait. i mean, finally FINALLY i'll learn the real biology. selama ni biology asyik belajar pasal plants yawn yawn pasal ecology for god sake sangat bosan (but it's more interesting than maths of course).


tapi tak boleh dinafikan i sangat cuak sekali imbas lesson plan gila banyak topic yang nak kena habiskan sebelum mid sem exam. dalam masa enam minggu kena habiskan enam topik yang obviously sangat susah (duhh sangat banyak nak kena hafal term itu ini) and another five weeks untuk habiskan enam chapter sebelum final exam. tu belum masuk lagi subjects lain physics dan chemistry. and MATHEMATICS II! omaigod omaigod.


bila i text kawan i semalam i tanya dia tengah buat apa. "ohh tengah belek-belek notes anatomy" -___-"


lately i dah kurang addicted dengan facebook. satu ; sebab internet connection kat rumah i sangat sangat siput babi i malas nak buang masa tunggu page loading padahal semua orang dah buat status baru i baru nak komen status sebelumnya. second ; asyik orang sama yang balas komen i. so senang cerita i rajinkan diri i update blog instead of bukak facebook.


tomorrow i'll be off to my sister's place. she's having a panic attack nak final exam padahal baru form 1.


later.

longing for a good night sleep

i had a terrible day today. heh terrible la sangat. i semangat nak bangun awal hari ni dah siap set alarm pukul sekiansekian (tak boleh reveal pukul berapa i bangun pagi) tapi terlajak dua jam kemudian. sangat bagus didiey. -___-"


ada dua sebab kenapa i rasa kecewa hari ni. first sebab tadi alia bagitau i pesanan daripada lecturer hs kitorang miss azwa. she said our perfomance was very bad hanya 3 orang je yang berjaya dapat A for the subject. OMG 3 ORANG JE? even masa krisis result biology masa mid sem pun at least ada 5 orang yang dapat A (masa tu our perfomance sangat teruk sampaikan ada ura-ura kena buat re-test tapi turns out tak payah buat hanya buat extra test).


sekarang i dah sangat cuak omg can i make it? boleh tak i dapatkan four flat splat untuk kali ni? just the thought of miss azwa i rasa macam nak curl dalam selimut tak keluar-keluar. wish me lotsa luck people. i'm scared. and to my classmates too. hopefully semua orang akan dapat apa yang diusahakan selama ni. aminnn.


so the second reason why i'm feeling a little blue tonight ; i rasa sedikit bersalah kepada kawan i. kawan i sangat rajin nak text i tanya khabar itu ini tapi i sangat sangat malas nak reply walaupun i obviously tade kerja lain pun nak buat. padan muka i sekarang dia dah fikir bukan-bukan pasal i.


heh sebab yang sangat simple macam ni pun boleh buat i emotional satu malam. patut la kawan i cakap i tak matang lagi.

movie marathon yeahh

what else i boleh buat sepanjang holiday kalau tak movie marathon? so i've watched a few interesting movies tapi terima kasih kepada internet connection yang sangat busuk beberapa movies best yang i semangat nak download akhirnya tergendala.




movie ni best. very brilliant tapi i sangat glad adik i tiba-tiba tak nak tengok dengan i sebab banyak scene tak bermoral -___-". hah call me prudish.


i paling suka scene si eshter bunuh sister abigail dengan hammer. first sebab i memang tak suka watak sister abigail. second sebab i tak pernah terfikir omg ada orang sanggup pecahkan kepala orang lain guna hammer? that's just creepy.



this movie was way back in 2001 and listed as one of the best horror movies so i semangat nak tengok. but yawn yawn movie ni sangat bosan langsung tak horror. okey takut la jugak terutama masa scene anak dia tiba-tiba jadi orang tua tangan berkedut seribu dah la pakai serba putih main lilin tengah-tengah malam. but seriously, bosan.




okey movie ini pun dah sangat lama i rasa 2001 kot? but i've watched this like two or three times. hilarious and sangat ringan bila i tengok movie ni i tak payah fikir apa-apa. but i don't want to be like her;

"i suddenly realized unless that something is changed soon i was going to live a life where my major relationship with a bottle of wine and i finally die fat and alone and be found three weeks later half-eaten by dogs"

ha-ha.

now i'm begging si internet untuk tak buat hal. penat i download banyak movies sampai sekarang tak boleh tengok.