cheering myself up

i know i'm being selfish but i want things to be just like before. please don't be mad at me. can we just stay friends forever? please please i'm begging you.

lagi 12 harii

well, pardon me for being such a silly emotional spoiled brat (heh ambik kau) in the previous post. blaming Him for things you fail to achieve? stupid, i must say.


here are few things i must remind myself to do and not to do;


1. jangan boros lagi. tolong la faham elaun kau sangat la tak banyak jangan mengada-ngada nak beli kasut baru tiap-tiap kali elaun masuk. padan muka setiap kali duit habis mengadu kat abah suruh masukkan duit. sila insaf sekarang heh.


2. who cares if he's mad or not. i akan anggap dia kawan i semata-mata sampai bila-bila, the end.


3. kalau nak jadi pandai kena la rajin belajar. jangan malas-malas lagi! tolong la faham final lagi tiga minggu tahu tak?


4. and and umi abah nak datang sini lagi dua belas harii! at last, i have something nice to look forward. i mean, something nicer. err whatever.


happy weekend people :)

cakap-cakap tu kan doa

jadi, tolong la jangan asyik merepek heh nak keneng-kenengkan i dengan orang itu orang ini nanti kalau jadi betul macam mana? i jugak yang merana tolong la i tak nak okey? marah grr.


okey lupakan perkara yang serabut. hoh hari ini sangat penat walhal ada dua kelas je. tadi macam kelam-kabut sikit taw sebab dalam bas sebelum sampai MSU i baru teringat hari ni sepatutnya i kena buat presentation chemistry. gila ahh dah la i tertinggal nota kat rumah habis kelam-kabut tadi buat ringkasan sikit-sikit apa nak cakap nanti. nasib baik i kena present pasal electrolysis yang semua orang dah pernah belajar sebelum ni. kalau tak habis la i merepek sorang-sorang kat depan kelas. lain kali buat la kalut macam tu lagi heh.


esok kuiz anatomy kuiz chemistry! tak habis belajar lagi tapi mengada-ngada nak update blog. dah dah cepat pergi belajar sekarang. selamat berjaya kepada diri sendiri haha.

siapa cakap maths senang?

madam asharina would, apparently. but not me. i always hate maths. like literally, i hate maths and i think the reason i choose to become a doctor in spite of all the long and winding road (heh) sebab memang i tak suka maths. i tak suka apa-apa yang ada kaitan dengan nombor kecuali diskaun masa year end sales. kenapa i kena belajar maths pun i tak tahu.


well luckily for me kalau i lagi tak suka certain subjects tu it's easier for me to get A. pelik. mungkin sebab i dah mindset i tak pandai this and that so i belajar rajin-rajin. oh oh except for BM. masa spm je kot i dapat A1 -___-"


madam asharina is a good teacher. dia sangat pandai okey. like, a maths genius. she used to study in aussie (aussie i tell you!) and she's the only malay student in her course. gila pandai wey. the problem is, she's different. i mean, she's way different from the other lecturers. i selalu masalah kalau nak adapt dengan perubahan so i think i need more time nak adapt dengan madam kesayangan. cuma i risau i perlu banyak masa nak adapt walhal tinggal lagi sebulan final exam. dah la i paling tak suka maths. so how?


and i did something really bad the other day. i broke someone's heart. well i'm sorry and i really mean it.

hello saturday!

i always love saturday haha. back when i was in terengganu i hate saturday. back then saturday means i have to finish all of my homeworks, get ready for school and get ready to get busy and tired all over again. oh oh was it like two years ago i used to be a form fiver? wow that was a long time ago i guess.


so the weekend has started and for the first time ever i've done a to-do-list good job didiey (tak habis-habis puji diri sendiri). heh kalau buat to-do-list tapi kalau tak habiskan baik tak payah.


life has been so busy lately (tapi masih sempat update blog) sangat banyak benda kena siapkan suddenly i miss home. i won't be coming home this CNY since my parents are so coming to shah alam yeay can't wait. my sister is off to NZ by next month, particularly on the eve of CNY. my best friend asked me what would i feel about my sister going but the question left me speechless. well, i guess i haven't give much thought about her going. but i think i would miss her terribly (euwww if you read this haha).


and btw i have finally master the way to calculate the overall pointer and heh sila teka berapa yang i dapat? 3.92 sahaja. see how much an A- affects my whole life? my whole pointer, i mean. ini bermaksud i perlu WAJIB berusaha lagi kuat bukan sekadar temankan hanis insyirah layan hindustan. haha apakah?


i akan cuba menulis blog dalam bahasa melayu. well i remember promising to write in bahasa in my first entry a year ago. i akan cuba walaupun bahasa melayu i sangat teruk masa spm dulu-dulu sangat ajaib kalau i dapat A untuk bm.


okey i am so going to enjoy my weekend so till then people :)

tak suka panas tapi tak tahan sejuk habis tu mana i nak tinggal?

hari ni isytihar sebagai hari serabut sedunia. sangat serabut sebab lab test chemistry sepatutnya pukul 12 lebih tapi macam biasa bas pukul 10 lebih sampai je MSU terus pergi print out lab report chemistry. sikit punya lama edit-edit report berpeluh ketiak heh. dah la kedai print tu tempat yang i paling tak suka sebab panas hapak tolong la pasang air-cond lain kali.


lepas tu classmates semua ajak pergi tengok result mid sem. semalam i dah gila cuak bila tahu result keluar hari ni. bayang ah, kitorang exam tahun lepas sekarang baru dapat result (walhal baru berapa hari tahun baru haha).


bila tengok result apa semua kan terus pergi lab sebab nak siapkan lab test cepat-cepat malas dah nak baca apa lagi kan. dah la kena berebut tempat satu lab boleh masuk 15 orang je. dah la panas heh i memang tak suka panas.


masa lab test i sangat kesian burette masalah conical flask berminyak lepas tu cuak nak kira dissociation constant entah betul entah tidak apa yang i jawab. redha je la didiey. habis lab test kitorang jalan pergi kelas pukul lima tadi baru habis kelas.


okey sebenarnya nak cerita pasal mid sem result saja nak buat introduction panjang-panjang haha. well to be honest i did not put any high hope sebab i tak nak sedih-sedih lagi kalau tak dapat apa yang i nak. still, i was a little frustrated i did not get A for anatomy subject grr. i got A for other four subjects thank god for that but it would be really nice if i score four flat huh?


but things happened. and i can do better next time. there's always next time. kali ini memang gila semangat ahh nak dapatkan A untuk anatomy. pray for me, would you? :)

i'm glad weekend is over

serius. si pemalas didiey asyik main-main je kalau tak ada kelas. tidur lambat bangun lambat makan banyak online banyak hish tak senonoh. mana pergi semua azam tahun baru i? heh konon nak jadi rajin nak dapat four flat yada yada come on la didiey -___-"


fine, lepas ni i akan jadi lebih serius. tak hingin layan perasaan bukan-bukan lagi. i kan dah besar (berapa kali nak cakap).


i realized that i write blog not for people to read. i mean, i semangat tulis blog sebab i nak bagi updates pasal diri i dan kehidupan baru penuh gelora ecehh kepada kawan-kawan lama i yang i tahu sekali-sekala akan baca apa yang i merepek kat sini. but for my new friends to read and know my past; well i have never intended to do so. not that i have a bad past ke hape kan tapi segan sikit la. dah la i memang suka merepek dari dulu sampai sekarang. nanti kalau semua orang salah faham macam mana?


heh i wish to change my link tapi sangat leceh. macam mana my fellow bloggers nak jejak i nanti? susah susah. ahh whatever. like who cares who read my blog? as long as you keep it to yourself and not making a big deal out of anything, i don't mind.


bajet semua orang baca blog kau ke? heh.

allowance

as soon as my january allowance is cashed and ka-chingg ready to be used i went to mid valley and bought three shirts. two to be exact, because the my friend bought me one for my belated birthday. thank you very much.


now i realised i had spent at least 100 bucks for the whole day. wow. see how boros i can be? to avoid hating myself for spending so much money i convinced myself that i have the right to spend as much money as i want sebab i dah 13 hari suffer hidup tanpa elaun (elaun MARA terlambat masuk). heh.


okey benda dah dilepas jangan dikenang. i tanak fikir lagi berapa banyak i dah habiskan hari ni hish. pergi belajar sekarang didiey. bye.

it's not you, it's me

"you know what dear, i still don't get over it" i said to my friend.


"it's because you don't want to get over it"


"well, i don't want to"


"why?"


"because she never like me and i never like her. there's no point if i make an effort to get over it. we still don't like each other"


my friend said nothing.

dean's list award

well it was quite fun actually despite the fact that i'm not at all bersemangat to join the event at the first place. the theme was all red (official colour of MSU kesayangan) and the girls had fun snapping pictures. and maybe that was the main reason why i had so much fun :P


some random pictures ;

madam kamsiah's mentees :)

didiey and najwa hani
both are retarded (in a cute way) haha

i was touched when daddy said congratulations. walhal i didn't feel a thing about this. maybe i should be a little more grateful. alhamdulillah for my good result, i'm blessed :)