to these four people, i'm sorry

you (1),
mintak maaf sebab tak dengar cakap kau. mintak maaf sebab degil bila kau cakap jangan buat aku buat jugak. but but i can't promise you i won't do it again heh i had fun the other day. tapi there's one thing i can promise though, well, i'm not what you're thinking. i am not playing around i don't know i just need some time fine i know you won't be reading this so there's no point i promise anything here. heh. again, i'm sorry.


you (2),
i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i've been a really bad bad best friend. fine, semalam aku buat-buat tak faham kenapa kau marah and i was so rude, i know. i guess you have the right to be mad at me i am not treating you good enough. but trust me, this time is for real. well hopefully. again, i'm sorry.


you (3),
mintak maaf aku selalu fikir buruk-buruk pasal kau. the thing is, i need some time to set my mind that you're not what you used to be. well i promise you i won't do it again (wow, i must be so serious i write this in blog). kau baik kau baik kau baik kau baik baik haha tengah mindset. again, i'm sorry.


you (4),
i guess you've read my message and yeah you did not reply. well that's it. we're done i guess. but i want you to know that no matter what happen you are still my favourite friend. thank you for treating me so nicely and i'm really hoping you'll find someone better later, a much much better person than i am. again, i'm sorry.


see how uncool i am? like everyone is mad at me. now i'm starting to feel mad at myself. heh.

dad, i'm still single

my parents keep asking me whether i have a boyfriend or not. when i tell them i don't have any (well that's the sad truth), they think i'm lying. the thing is i am not lying and heh no one is interested in me. okey maybe there are people who interested in me but ah well forget it.


last night my mom and my day were looking at my pictures during the homestay days (sebenarnya i paksa diorang tengok haha) and my dad was like, eh eh kenapa angah asyik bergambar dengan budak ni? he was pointing at A, one of my classmates, with a weird expression, as if he had caught me red-handed (heh).


penat i nak jelaskan dekat abah i dengan si A tu satu kumpulan masa tu and and A kan memang suka nak posing-posing pantang nampak kamera. abah, tolong la faham i have nothing to do with him for god sake he is my classmate grr.


malam tu, abah tanya i pasal exam macam mana susah tak semua-semua la. well i told him about F, another classmate of mine. i cakap la kat umi dengan abah i selalu belajar dengan F sebab nak tolong dia untuk exam. then abah terus serang i macam-macam soalan belajar dua orang je ke belajar kat mana kenapa nak tolong dia whatever la abah haha.


dad, those two guys are my classmates and please, i'm too young for those kinda stuff. and if (heh, IF) i have a boyfriend one day you'll be the first to know.


okey fine, dad won't read this.


p/s : tba-tiba semuaaa orang dah ada boyfriend. except me. sigh sigh haha

suprise suprise

second semester has officially ended! wow gila cepat masa empat bulan berlalu. and and i am left with another four months before everything ends. god, do make time turns slower i can't bear to lose my friends yet :(


okey fine didiey jangan nak emosional pulak.


so, final exam dah habis yeay! it had been two tough weeks okey i dah merepek pasal ni dalam entries lepas tak payah nak cakap benda sama. heh macam tak percaya i boleh tak update blog like almost seminggu. tiba-tiba rasa kekok tak tahu nak tulis ape haha.


p/s : life has been really weird nowadays. i have done few things i know i should have not been doing but hey it's fun. well i'm sorry for my selfishness.

extreme-ly bu-sy

i sangat sibuk kebelakangan ini. serius sangat sibuk. sekarang minggu ulangkaji (revision week) dan ini bermaksud minggu depan peperiksaan akhir semester. wow that means semester two is going to end. heh but i'm too busy to reminisce anything, yet. and i'm just too busy to update anything.


good luck didiey, four flat tau. (semua orang cepat aminkan!)

what's next?

heh where's your pride didiey?

tiga minggu diet

macam dah kurus sikit :)


heh riak.

10 random facts

10 random facts about my sister and i;


1. since i'm the middle child i'm close to both of my sisters tapi i dengan kakak lagi rapat since kakak is only two years older than me so basically we have a lot to share. kakak dengan adik tak rapat sangat kalau nak dibandingkan dengan i dan adik. my sister always think Ira is still a child walhal Ira is fourteen for god sake heh kakak selalu layan adik macam layan budak kecik -___-"


2. we went to the same school masa sekolah rendah, sekolah menengah rendah dan sekolah menengah atas but we're not practically schoolmates since both masa sekolah rendah dengan sekolah menengah atas she left when i was about to become a schoolmate heh. masa kat SHAMS dulu je kitorang pernah practically schoolmates (she was a prefect back then and i was the naughty girl haha), itu pun cuma setahun.


3. i used to envy my sister. back then selalu semua orang nak bandingkan kakak dengan i. fine, she is a good girl pandai ambil hati orang pandai jaga diri semua i je yang manja suka menangis suka nak nakal-nakal masa sekolah.


4. kakak selalu cakap taste i pelik. dia selalu tak approve lelaki yang i suka heh. paling dia tak approve bila i pernah suka this one chinese guy haha semua orang diam jangan nak komen bukan-bukan. tapi kakak pun selalu suka lelaki-lelaki pelik lepas tu suka paksa i dengar cerita merepek pasal those guys. bila turn i nak cerita dia boleh pulak buat-buat tidur -___-"


5. her english is so good i never understand what she blogs about. she likes to make me read those weird books and watch sappy love stories. books don't interest me and i prefer comedy or horror movies rather than thought provoking movies. and and my english is really bad sebab tu i selalu rojak bila tulis blog.


6. dia gelakkan i bila i cakap i tengah diet dan paksa i makan banyak-banyak sengaja rosakkan diet i grr. well she said she doesn't care if she's fat as long as she can eat anything she likes. i hate her for that.


7. semua orang selalu cakap muka kitorang sebijik heh fine i lagi gelap sebenarnya. and and orang selalu ingat i kakak hello tolong la faham.


8. i cried because i thought she loves her boyfriend more than she loves me. when she asked me why i cried i told her i'm not crying haha tak pandai menipu.


9. i cried when she left for new zealand.


10. she is the best sister i have ever had (walhal i cuma ada seorang kakak je) and i miss you already :(



heh did i just said that out loud?

i'll prove you guys wrong, insyaallah

i'm confuse. i mean, people keep telling me (more like reminding me) jangan selalu gaduh-gaduh dengan lelaki nanti kahwin. huh hell-uh.


okey here goes. there's this one guy who keeps cari masalah dengan i sejak dulu-dulu lagi sejak i mula-mula masuk kolej. serius i tak faham apa masalah lelaki ni kan selalu nak buat i marah nak tengok i mencarut-carut. eh eh tak, i tak pernah mencarut. paling teruk pun i akan cakap 'bodoh' itu pun dah selalu kena marah dengan roommate i -___-"


sekarang dah masuk semester dua dia dah macam kurang jahat sikit kalau nak dibandingkan dengan semester lepas still still kitorang ada je benda yang nak gaduh. and and semua asyik nak cakap kitorang akan kahwin la itu la ini la like come on, jangan la nak doakan yang bukan-bukan i have my own desired man (heh) so pelase please leave us alone jangan la nak keneng-kenengkan i dengan dia lagi.


so just now when everyone said we are going to get married someday i told them i'll prove them wrong i tak nak kahwin dengan dia. i tahu i dah terlebih berlagak sikit tadi heh jangan la kau kabulkan doa diorang semua amin.


p/s : flight kakak diawalkan satu hari. wow, suddenly my heart feels heavy.
p/s/s : gambar tak ada kaitan dengan entry heh.

merepek tengah-tengah malam

now that everything has settled (merujuk kepada program homestay dan kuiz gray's anatomy), i have to get things back on track. heh i dah banyak main-main sedar tak sedar lagi satu minggu lebih dah nak final exam. so first thing first, starting from tomorrow, i mean, today (sekarang dah rabu kot), i tak akan sibuk-sibuk nak tahu hal orang lagi. people do mistakes even i did mistakes now it's time for me to forgive and forget. well hey backstabber, i'm sorry i call you a backstabber.



and and i'm trying to be more serious in classes tak nak main-main sangat tolong la serius kalau nak four flat. btw sekarang kitorang tengah belajar chapter reproductive system heh i dah agak memang suasana kelas akan jadi macam ni. those boys sangat-sangat la nakal but thanks to them i know a lot of things pasal lelaki yang i tak pernah pernah ambik tahu selama ni. i kan tak ada adik-beradik lelaki kalau dulu-dulu nak bergaul dengan lelaki pun tak pandai -___-"


and! my sister is coming to my place tomorrow! i mean, wednesday which is today. sigh sigh these few days would be our last days together hopefully we would have so much fun. bye bye big sis, i would miss you.

backstabber

it hurts me to know that someone that i always like and trust turns out to be the worst backstabber. i think i hate you now. and it really hurts to hate you since you have always be a favourite friend. my roommate said i should not hate a friend for a mistake since a friend is a human who can't help but do mistakes sometimes. but i'm sorry i have to hate you. and in case you are reading this, i hate you.