of secrets and ...

being the middle child, i can mingle well with both of my sisters. they tend to tell me things and i've heard too many "don't tell Mom"s -.- macam semalam, Ira called and cried. i can be a very good listener but i'm not good with words. bila Ira cakap dia sedih, i cuma boleh cakap "err Ira kan baru dua bulan dekat sana memang la susah sikit nak adapt, sabar". i don't think i managed to calm her down -.- but at least she has someone to listen kan?


Mom is the emotional type, she freaks out too easily. that's why we choose not to tell Mom some things. there are a lot of things that i don't tell Mom either. Mom doesn't know i got my first C for Genetics HAHA.


the sad thing is, i can only listen and there's nothing i can do. kalau i tak cakap dengan Umi what happens to Ira (or Kakak) macam mana i nak tolong? heh i'm so helpless -.- and when Mom asked me anything i have to kinda um, lie. it's not a total lie anyway, i simply said "i don't know" T.T what am i supposed to do then? they tell me not to tell Mom so i won't tell. they trust me. sorry Mom..


anyway, Sha is off to Egypt tomorrow i forgot to buy her anything. loser taaaak? -.- Dad is too busy to layan me to drive me to any gift shop and as usual, Mom is too lazy to drive. so i came up with an idea to give her a CD that consists of my favourite songs HAHA kenapa lagu i yang suka? because i want her to remember me whenever she listens to those songs :') the idea sounds so lame but who cares HAHA and i'll make her a handmade card. haish, another goodbye. i always hate goodbyes T.T