long timeeee

i've been so busy. exam's over last two weeks and i spent one week in Malaysia and last week was a busy week, too. i was busy adapting to the module and yeah, we had three autopsies and it was super exhausting. actually we only had to stand up and WATCH but maybe the smell and the look of the deceased drained the energy out of me *over*.

i should cerita some more about autopsies. out of the three cases (so far), two of them were suicidal cases. yes, taking their own lives. it was so heartbreaking to see these people who just simply give up with life. i said so to my friends and they said may be because they don't know the Creator and they don't know that they actually has Him to rely on to. sedihnya T__T

sedih for them, and for their families too.

alang-alang dah cerita, let me tell all the procedures (i don't know how it is done in Malaysia but this is the Indian way). first thing first, you have to know that every unnatural death (as in die not because of diseases, which includes road traffic accidents too) must undergo autopsy. in Malaysia, it is up to the families whether they have any suspicion on how their families die. anyway, they take the bodies from the hospital/death scene straight to the morgue. but they have to wait for the police's "permission" to do the autopsy and it may take some time *biasa lah India*.

after the "permission letter" is given, terus angkut mayat masuk the autopsy room and the procedures usually take about less than 30 minutes but it would be longer if there are students. imagine, we were so excited during the first autopsy. ironically the family of the deceased were crying outside. we had to remind each other "eh buat muka sedih, kesian family dia".

after the identification and history on how the deceased die, the "undertakers" (they call them the undertakers! i thought undertakers are the ones who dig the grave?) will start the cutting. anyway, they start the incision from the symphysis menti.. alrite, let's not use the medical terms. the incision starts from the chin to the upper level of groin. masa first year i covered my nose because i can't stand the smell of formalin but now i covered my nose because i seriously can't stand the smell of fresh blood. a lot of blood. and the smell of fat. and the look of the deceased..

they take out all the organs by pulling the tongue first until the large intestine. bet you guys can't imagine how hewhewhew. just imagine, i don't have any picture (not that i want to post any even if i have one) -.-' once the organs are out they start examining the organs and take some of them and put them in jars for chemical analysis, depending on the history of the deceased.

i hate the part when they cut open the head and take out the brain. they examine the covering of the brain (it's called meninges) and cut open the brain to see the white matter inside. after finishing the examination they simply put all the organs into the body including the brain. yes, you read it right, brain is now in the tummy and the head is empty. there's a reason behind it though. too lazy to tell, Google sendiri k? later the sew the body together and clean the body and DONE. sekejap gila. and they're getting ready with the next body. phew.

honestly i hate autopsies. i hate to see the bodies are roughly handled. i rather stick to my aim of becoming a pediatrician. heh.

eh, nak share satu benda boleh?

‎"And when someone puts all his trust in Allah, He (Allah) will be enough for him." (65:3)

bai :')

p/s : mana janji nak rajin update #WS? T__T