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Now I developed a new obsession -- making sure Toby eats something haha because he refused to eat anything. Even a freshly-boiled chicken! Just now I "accidentally" shoved his biscuits into his mouth and well, he continued eating like nothing happened. Okaaay. He's confusing and he's only a cat wait until I have a baby who would keep on crying and I don't know what I should do to make it stop.......


My parents keep on saying that Toby is a sad cat and it's all my fault. They said I trained him to be a baby instead of a cat now he's confused so now he's sad. Really.....


So, it's been almost a month we've been in Terengganu I really think we should go back to Johor by this time..... Of course I like my house better haha but I miss Ibu too (seriously!) and A keeps on saying how he misses Johor. Okay I get it... wait until we both get our licenses ok! We plan to drive back to Johor but I don't know -- should we? Sounds like fun but it would cost a lot more than two bus tickets. We're officially broke haha I don't know how are we going to survive months until we got hired T_T



In the meantime, We spend the free time helping out my parents. Mowing the lawn and whatnot bahaha. And I'm currently reading The Particular Sadness of Lemon Cake which is by the way as sad as the title is. But I like sad, depressing novels.


I went to H's house the other day and his Mom let me have few books since nobody would read those books anymore. She said she did a part time job as a librarian because "she loves books".


I need to jot everything down for future reference. I'm only 23 but I forgot 60% of what happened in my life. Such a pity.

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I went to Shah Alam yesterday to attend Mira's brother's wedding. Her brother's, not hers haha I did not intend to go in the first place because I hardly know her brother and I know she would be busy and it's a long ride (and a lot of money spent!) to Shah Alam but she insisted and it's kind of fun meeting them after almost a month we last see each other.. so yeah..


As expected Mira was busy with the guests and Linda was busy with her boyfriend (haha!) and yeah, my sister was there too. I insisted her to come and stuff her with good food to stop her from whining from "not getting enough good food because she's broke" haha not at all it's just her and the whining. And Ama was there and since she planned to board the plane to Kelantan we spent the rest of the day together before going to the airport together.


I'm always amazed on how Ama can stay in touch with the "people in the past" (I don't stay in touch and people come and go in your life except for few in my life) and she really makes the effort to stay in touch satu, and stay close like they were before. Wow. I can do that with only few people. Thank God I don't get awkward with Sha for example. But others -- haha. I know right, it's not you, it's me! I'm the socially awkward one.


It's nice to actually sit alone sometimes (I mean after you got married) and you know, just me and good, strong coffee and a book -- before I got married I did hat almost everyday. After classes finished I would spend the free time in any random shops for a good cup of coffee, alone. It was fun!


But I got so caught up in the marriage haha and I barely spend time alone anymore. Now after one year we figured out we do need "our own space" sometimes.


And my husband is the sweetest! Toby got injured and he stopped eating! I think it's because of the injury (at the nose to be exact) he can barely smell anything so he just stopped eating. But he got better but he eats so little I'm so worried I wanted to cry but we boil some chicken for him (he eats chicken!).


I always suap Toby because I want him to be dependent on me haha but I was busy just now so I said to A can you suap him like I always do and he actually did it! Despite the fact that he does not encourage me to manjakan Toby and whatnot but -- ow man I wanted to cry haha. We really need to get pregnant now I know he's ready! :p

"Baru habis belajar"

Hi. I'm actually home, for good. Can you believe it haha. It's been so long and now I'm home again. I haven't miss Bangalore, yet. I've been busy adapting with the new life (as an adult?). Everything is so carefree in India, even after I got married. It kinda different here tho. The good different or bad different -- I need time to tell haha.


Despite my resolution to lose weight I'm still fat.


Toby is home too! I was expecting he would be the loser one, you know. Because I got fifteen other cats at home. I imagined he would be chased by the other cats and his life would be miserable (less miserable than being left at India with some strangers).


Well, it turns out differently. He chases all other cats... he even defeated the "alpha male" among the cats here..... what the.... now he got some injuries at the face because he's busy chasing everyone..... and he eats fish and chicken! That's not the cat that I know for four years!


Thank God at least he still remember me. If not.. I jual you Toby hmph. I wanted to blog about the process of taking him back here (niat selalu ada) but later okay, haha.


They said we would be called for interviews at least after six months. At first I don't mind. I don't want to start early and suffer like my seniors haha but now.. I kinda need money.....


I said to my husband I dream of going into a mall and buy everything without having to stop and think "Eh dah lebih bajet ke" T_T If I were still single I would take the job at a pet shop nearby! Kerja mandikan kucing! I don't mind that haha. But it's different after you got married -- priorities change :p


Eh, later (suami dah balik).

Closure

"Hey, I see you were not listed for Distinction. It's okay you'll get one next time. But you were really good the other day."


:)

Goodbye Goodbye

I'll be leaving India in two weeks time. Everyone keeps saying they never planned to come to India but ended up here but they are thankful anyway etc etc but me, I wanted to come to India. I remember giving an official letter to the administration saying that I want to come to India tho I can go to somewhere fancier.  Haha I was that determined.

I don't have much to complain about India. Of course I despise the traffic, the annoying auto drivers, the fact that my house is just next to a railway station, the fact that the language is too complicated and why nobody understands when I speak a proper English, and how they complain about "your English is not too good" BUT YOU MADE ME SPEAK LIKE THAT haha and why would you let cows, chickens, cats and dogs roaming the streets just like that? 

Other than that, I kind of like India.

Anyway.. the results were announced and I did pass my MBBS. I mean, Alhamdulillah I've made it but being me, I want something more than just a "pass". I know I did good and it was a little frustrating but I keep in my mind that after five years I would be fine with the fact that I failed my own aim/target/goal or whatever so haha I feel better now. And I fought with a good fight so it's worth it, even it's just a "pass" haha. 

I was going through the old notebooks and I know I have done a good job and I am doing this because I like it, not just for the sake of a scroll. So I'm good here haha.

But no I won't be posting any "Hey guys I've made it!" status I don't deserve it (yet).

Anyway!

Dr Dominic is like the kindest examiner I'm so glad I had a Medicine case for long case and I was kinda hoping for a CNS case but He knew better so He gave me something a way easier haha. But I did a really bad job in Pediatrics short case. It's even more frustrating because I like Pediatrics the most. It's like I was betraying an old friend or something lol. Other than that I was fine. And theory papers -- they were the easiest haha! Seriously I was expecting something more complicated and cruel and you know, but okay fine, bronchopneumonia is fine.... haha!

Come to think of it.. why did I choose MBBS in the first place? Why did I not think of being something not involving life and death like you know, a teacher, or accountant or, I don't know. I was only 16 then but I was so convinced I wanted to be a doctor I wanted to be able to comfort people in need etc etc haha so here I am.. let's just hope I would have at least 6 months before I have to start working.....

My husband is the kindest he's busy cooking in the kitchen while I'm here writing in front of the laptop having fun hahaha I love baby, I'll cook tomorrow :p

Life is good, life is pretty good. I'm going to miss my five years in India. I envy Kak Fien, being able to come back to India and meet the teachers and showing them how successful she bcomes.. :)

I want to write a lot more I've been drafting everything in my head but it's too emotional I need some time to sort all the memories haha. Two week left.

Last Day Tomorrow

Have I told you that my husband is every opposite of me? I am anxious most of the time buy he is calm um not calm but chill? I think. For the past one month (3 weeks of study leave and 1 week of theory exam) he is so .. chill? Haha.


I want to know everything I read all the books and I remember most of the sentences what are the pages what are the pictures.. I ticked all the chapters I am supposed to read and sonetimes I write notes. But him! He started "feeling nervous" by the end of second week of study leave. And he started to "really read" when it is 4-5 days left before exam started. Like omg if I were him I would freak out haha.


The thing is he said the theory exam was easy and (quoted( "I think I would pass. Nah, I just want to pass" haha I hate him for being so chill. I am nervous all the time and I keep on checking "how much I need to score to gey an A!" -_-


Today is the last day for him and tomorrow would be my turn.. hopefully.. everything woukd be all right, Insyaallah *sambung nervous*

The Second Week

The second week is the hardest I guess. The first week I was excited and I read throughout the day. Now its the second week I got a little lazy and I just want to sleep all day long. Or go out to have coffee with anyone.


I said to Sha kenapa masa SPM or the time we have to sit for the exam which would determine where are we going next (yet, I chose India haha) I was so focused! I mean I did not have to check my phone every 5 minutes. In my defense we did not have Instagram or smart phone back then haha. Its because we are old now; according to Sha.


I keep picturing in my head what our long holiday would be.. tak sabar haha its been too long my whole body needs some rest. Macam zaman lepas SPM do nothing allll day and I kept on complaining how boring it was but now I want it back haha just wait I would be complaining the same things few weeks from now :p


Back to work! Come on babe you can do this! *yawn* *whereismycoffee*

A long day

The study weeks have begun! Its not actually official yet but I got extra few days because E delivered earlier than she planned so we have to postpone our exams and wait for her lol. She is so funny she's dilated like 5 cm and she still thinks about whether or not she should go and take exam? Seriously haha

Im so used to being occupied all the time I go out early to class everyday and come back home by 5-6. By the time I have finished my dinner its already 8-9 and then I have to read  and get ready for tomorrow's classes. Suddenly Im back at Ramaiah (Hospital) again. Kalau puasa tak payah cakapmla its like Im catching my breath all the time trying to keep up with time lol

Suddenly Im so free now.. Im not really sure what to do. Ok la I have to revise and vet ready for the big exam kan but my mind is floating elsewhere and by the time I feel like reading there's something nice on TV haha. I really should start focusing by now!!  *pulls hair*

Last night I was busy coaching my husband sjnce he has exam today. I made him listen to my "lecture" and mind you, I always make people repeat after me whenever I teach them something haha. Layan je la suamiku. But today he come back smiling ear to ear so I assume all is well la kot. We should do that again sometime before final exam I guess. But now he's locked up in his room enjoying kononnya detik-detik lepas exam sorry la you esok you dah kena start coaching balik ingat boleh senang-lenang ke dalam rumah ni haha eh. I asked him should we start worrying about flight tickets (to Malaysia next month insyaallah) now he said "Kalau I tak lepas macam mana?" I said make sure you do because I have to go back home by next month! :p

Im going out with Ama tonight. Gigih ya mengopi malam-malam macam ni haha its always so nice to hang out with a girl friend now and then after one whole day hanging out with a guy. Its really different haha you don't get to be all emotional and bitchy (haha!) with your husband you need a girl friend for that lol

Emosi ke?

First, its the last day of school after five years here. Memula macam lama gila lima tahun eh tapi sebenarnya tak rasa sangat sebab selama ni sekolah pun bertahun-tahun but anyway suddenly its 30 days away from the end of the game..


I try not to be emotional, you know. Im always the emotional type but somehow after I got married I kinda influenced by how cool my Husband is. Cool as in he does what he likes he does not care about silly thibngs the way I always do etc etc.


Dont let me start haha I dont want to be emotiinal just yet because I have sooo manh thibgs to do now. Exam next week, study weeks and all the thibgs I need to settle before going back for good and the final exam. I hardly have good sleep now because I dont want to sleep haha I dont want to be comfortable I just want to be thoroughly prepared. Because I want more than just "pass" (please hate me Im always the annoying overachiever).


And E is going for labour! She's one of the people I like here. The one who can listen to you all day and gives few weird remarks haha. I was there with her when she first knew she's pregnant. I went with her for her very first USG ok la I might not be that helpful when she vomited the whole time tapi nak emosi jugak haha tak kira.


Life is good, life is pretty good. Lets make more memories while we are still here :)

Sepuluh

I had the best ten days in my life haha I said to myself this is better that my wedding lol. Wedid not plan to go back to Malaysia to celebrate Eid but out of the blue my sister decided she wanted to get married so of course I have to attend the wedding kan dah la langkah bendul bahaha. We went back to Johor first (being a good wife ikut suami balik kampung hihi) I thought it would be scary tapi it was fun, really. The food is really gooood haha and Ibu literally forced me to eat everything "Kenapa tak makan ni Ibu masak, tak sedap ye..." so you see, I have to please her :p


It was my second time in Johor but it feels different this time around maybe because we have been married for almost a year so the priority has changed a bit so you know, macam mana nak cakap haha, its not about impressing anyone anymore but I just wanted to treat everyone like my own family. Since the pressure is not there its more fun la lol I read somewhere someone was asking macam mana nak rasa seronok beraya dengan in laws -- "Treat the in laws like your own parents" and thats that :)


Then I went back to Terengganu there was no more Raya of course haha we only celebrate Raya on the first day itself. And we are the cool type padahal ada wedding Sabtu tapi rumah rilek rilek je keluar jalan sana sini lol. It was a long time back everyone is at home and (padahal lima orang je) everyone is so busy growing up.. If I have known when we started leaving home one by one pergi asrama, if I would have known things are never be the same again.. haha emosi. The last time I got married I did not have time to be emotional I was too happy marrying the guy of my dream haha


A blends well with everyone and surprisingly he became best friends with Abah! You should have seen the way Abah treated him when he first came to visit. Abah is always so protective which is sweet, and annoying too at the same time. But to see both of them suddenly became so close and I know they talked about me (hmph) now thats a gooood feeling. And everyone stopped trying to speak bahasa haha everyine ended up speaking Terengganu and occasionally I would ask A "You faham tak nak kena translate tak?" :p


One more month before the big final! I cant wait to leave India. But I dont want to be an adult too T_T